20
Jun
06

Confessions Of A Black Heart

Motionlessi believe everything happens in no coincidence. as i was touched by God.
i just lost my mobile phone. my beloved super feature mobile phone. how i lost it was not

important, since it’s still a mystery even to myself. this month i kinda forgot fulfilling my

due in giving my share in His glory as i do every month for my grateful.
He touches me this way, reminds me that i have lived so posh, i start to forgetting where i

get it. i was sad, angry & confuse ofcourse but somehow i’m happy. not to mention that i’m

a kind of person that cannot expressed my emotions, correctly i mean. i just learned

various emotion that i could actually or should have have. but from my early age, i don’t

feel them, really. like when i should be angry at the time i lost my bike, i feel nothing, just

empty. or when my aunts died, i didn’t cry just quiet inside. i never been angry or actually

be in a physical fight with someone, i never hit back. but i remember, someone i dislike so

much in the past and suddenly he just went ill for a few days afterwards.
anyway, back to our related topic. i lost my mobile phone and that’s it. it’s a lesson that

sometimes people need to look back just for a simple reminder what we already have now.
my past week was a week of freedom. a moment where i could really expressed my i really

want in my own free time. i start to understand myself, pleasuring my inner body towards

a level i once reached and lost in it. My_art

i paint (here’s one of the four massive styrofoam i did) , i create poems, i think, i sing, i ride my bike

again in midnite air and i see the "me" i left behind for all these money making activities.

i love the dark i use to create beyond all of my sunshine in my book of days. in sadness i

could feel the energy i need. funny to some people, or even freaky to those who actually

knows me after sometime. but yeah, i’m proud of the oddness inside. of all the lesson i

learn and moments i’ve burn, i grew into this individual who gives respect to the meaning of

life. in any forms, i believe things do have their own reason. even the slightest change really affect

me in somewhat way. that’s why i love pay attention to details human does and kept

forgetting. i try to learn and feel them. as i was always saying, the result is not important.

the biggest concern to me is the process. after all, we’re just dreamers in endless space…




191 Responses to “Confessions Of A Black Heart”


  1. 1    izakusha June 20, 2006 at 6:16 pm

    ” Be the change you want to see in the world”

    a poet, an artist, an you ride one cute bike. that’s quite a contribution to this paralyzing world.
    result is important, maybe not as important as the process, It’s from the process you learn, but from result u learn whether the process actually rolls the way it should. ;) i’m a science slave, mind me.

  2. 2    Berle Fe June 20, 2006 at 6:19 pm

    im heart in nick, im amaze to ur letter actually… but try to b n ur self, dont mind people c u crying or feel down. iy made u feel better f u let it… go on keep in God’s faith…. ;-)

  3. 3    Chikii June 20, 2006 at 6:55 pm

    hi…i was realy touch by ur letter..Nweiz,keep on believing that things hapend 4 a reason…enjoy life! and keep d faith in god! take care…

  4. 4    ashLey June 20, 2006 at 8:38 pm

    hey..i dunno why all of a sudden i became interested on reading a blog entry. maybe i have related what happened to you on what is actualy happening to me. anyways, all i can say is that no matter what God is always there for you. you may be not always be there for him but trust him. never step out of faith for the Lord. thanks for making me realyze what to do (though you may not know it).

  5. 5    Jodi Razell June 20, 2006 at 9:05 pm

    Hi! Im Jodi(my real name)…I was touch by ur letter. we’re the same…i am also the kind of person that cannot expressed emotions. when im angry or sad i dnt let any body see me…even when i have problems i just pretend…happy. dnt want them to be affected… thats me…just leave it to HIM he knows what to do…

  6. 6    anit xavier June 20, 2006 at 9:28 pm

    hi nice drawing

  7. 7    nayoko June 20, 2006 at 9:29 pm

    u dun really noe me but anyhow jz wanna say thank u.. so so lov ur blog entry.. it somhow gave me som life inspiration.. i’ve been a bit upset lately.. everything seem to b so not in hand.. i’m definitely furious. yet lookin at ur entry makes me feel dat everythin doesnt matter anymore. coz i noe there r somthin more important out there and dis world isnt jz about me.. thank u

  8. 8    CRuLLaN June 20, 2006 at 9:31 pm

    again the feeling is mutual… and i believe when you really hate someone and wished ill luck to that person it will happen. my roomate died after he stole my walkman in my locker. i hated him so much during that time that i wanted to choke him when he is sleeping. of course i did not. right after scholl he got a summer job on a construction firm and got trap alive while digging a hole for the foundation.

    yes, we are weird, different but with it we stand out among other people knowing we something they don’t know. and i’m proud of it too.

    our faith would have been different from other people(especially those religious fanatics) but he never forgets about us. God always provides and reminds us of his presence.(maybe our faith have more meaning to him than those) or maybe like the father to his prodigal son.

    hmmnnn…. nice painting by the way.

  9. 9    Catherine June 20, 2006 at 9:35 pm

    hello how are this is cathy!! can u be my new friend

  10. 10    analiza June 20, 2006 at 9:42 pm

    very nice painting…have a nice day and goodluck and keep in God’s faith always….

  11. 11    nur hazwanie June 20, 2006 at 9:44 pm

    hye,
    im wanie
    can u be my new friend

  12. 12    'mAi-Mai' June 20, 2006 at 10:21 pm

    not to worry about changes… because these only shows the plain truth that you are simply living “life”… takecare and keep on believing…

  13. 13    jasmin June 20, 2006 at 11:30 pm

    ei! interesting blog and a very nice painting. just always kip ur faith in God and i know everythin happens for a reason. God loves you always kip ion mind that ok!

  14. 14    Maria Marife June 20, 2006 at 11:40 pm

    hello!!!
    the feeling is muatual actually when i was read your confession!!! you really touch my heart!!! my experience is enough for me to realize that i promize to my self that no can hurt me again!!! i also believe that God has a purpose!!!!! hey i really what to be as your friend!!! guday and gudluck!@! more power!!!!

  15. 15    ARRY June 20, 2006 at 11:59 pm

    I’m sorry to hear about the loss of your mobile phone. Its just a thing. I’m sure all your friends will sms you on the other line. The best part is you take it very calm. Sometimes we lost certain things and we tend to get something better than that. I like the painting because of the colours you used. Its colours of life. Take care.Arry Hans

  16. 16    S A V A June 21, 2006 at 12:15 am

    :d head if not sticky with body also can lose…. believe it or not lol…

  17. 17    NaDiA June 21, 2006 at 12:40 am

    hey dude…

    well i know how u fil without phone..i cant live without phone.i dun mind if i lost my identity card but not my phone 4 sure..heheh

    well..life must goes on.u have to be positive all da time.like me everybody goin to enter university..so they all keep on asking which uni tat i get…they r so excited..etc etc etc..i jus dun have mood to talk wit them.i do fil happy 4 them but about me..i fil little frust but even i dun get uni doesnt mean im stupid.see i dun put my self in wrong way.i alwez pray to god n ask him to bless me every second of my life.i know im not strong to face tis world alone.i need his guide.i fight wit my mum recently.to make it short she want me to tell her where did i go etc etc etc.i jus need time anyway wit all tis.friends go uni n im not..tats make me wana be alone while.she just worried n i know its my false.duh..life life life..

    i like ur painting…i paint too..i write poem on my own..i travel..i love to walk anyway..so if u have time then we can walk together..hows tat ha?

  18. 18    Z h e l d a June 21, 2006 at 12:56 am

    i was inspired by your letter… keep on believing that everything happens for a reason.. God bless…

  19. 19    Z h e l d a June 21, 2006 at 12:57 am

    i was inspired by your letter… keep on believing that everything happens for a reason.. God bless…

  20. 20    Iva June 21, 2006 at 1:37 am

    I can see how u feel when u lost ur handphone cuz I lost one too due to robbery… Felt sad, angry and confused yet on the other side I felt relieved..
    It’s like sin redemption, huh?
    Ps : I wonder how losing a handphone be a mystery 4 u. Are u a forgetful guy or wat?

  21. 21    gina June 21, 2006 at 1:40 am

    well 4 me,ur great!! i can say that bcoz u can do many things or u hav spcial abilities… dnt u know dat HE gave u dat bcoz he bliv dat 8 s rily 4 u.. dat’s y we shud rily thank HIM 4 ol d wonders of life dat HE has gven 2 us…
    newiz, bak 2 d issue,,, ahmm.. just kip on bliving dat evrythings hapen 4 a rison. wat a gud learned lesson, ryt??? he juzt wnt u 2 wake up & HE wnted 2 save u.. datz ol i can say.. feel great olweizzz… dnt 4get 2 pray. if u wnt me 2 b ur frend, wel, ds is my mobile#09105216990… hehehe,, juz kiding!! bye2..

  22. 22    Florisa June 21, 2006 at 1:42 am

    =)

  23. 23    Erika Joi June 21, 2006 at 1:58 am

    very touching prang nangyari na din s kin yun pro mskt poh tlga eh hhhmmmmm…..i just really want to say that this letter is really amazing thanks poh….mwakzzz

  24. 24    Josephine June 21, 2006 at 2:17 am

    kij6uky io5kkjh malaim ofmrgu

  25. 25    Linda June 21, 2006 at 3:08 am

    Don’t worry…be happy :), GOD bless U and will always show U the way…keep in GOD faith :)

  26. 26    Linda June 21, 2006 at 3:10 am

    Don’t worry…be happy :), GOD bless U and will always show U the way…keep in GOD’s faith :)

  27. 27    Karina June 21, 2006 at 3:36 am

    http://acitore.blogspot.com

    I would be forever grateful to you, if you post a comment…

  28. 28    MARY ANN June 21, 2006 at 4:21 am

    Believe He is always there if everyway way your in.

  29. 29    april June 21, 2006 at 4:49 am

    graveh!!!! 2 d highest level n i2!!!ka2iyak!!!!nku, kung ako yan, bak naloka na ko!!!! GODBLESS!!!JUST ALWAYS PRAY!!!

  30. 30    Nancy June 21, 2006 at 5:36 am

    i dont usually click the “read more” in blogs. but this one you got us! im so proud of people like you. loosing your phone doesnt mean a thing but on how you persive the incedent. others may happen to them but their reaction would be “wala lang” pero ikaw you have dig in deeper that you have seen the lime light of it. May more MEN be a real MEN like you. Horaay! God bless you more. im too have mind bugging incident. someday il know why it hapend. smile!

  31. 31    Nancy June 21, 2006 at 5:41 am

    hmmm… could you read your painting for us? so intriguing. thanks.

  32. 32    aLLeRa June 21, 2006 at 6:27 am

    thats really a poet in you.. I admit I am touch by your sense.

    believing that everything has a reason and your faith.. very amazing, only few people realize that He who created us has the reasons for everything. things that He endowed us. and will still give.–

    keep believing!

  33. 33    ediol June 21, 2006 at 6:57 am

    talaga!!!! rely y/… wer did u go … or ur jst careless… no..no..no…no… 8z coincidnt knw y?…. gods tellng u to buy a new pc … dars war he mean by dat…

  34. 34    MeAnn June 21, 2006 at 7:49 am

    hi there!!!
    I feel sorry for what hapened, but just think it this way. God may have a sole purpose for leting that hapen, alam naman nia makakaya mo yan. i mean its just a material thing kya maswerte k parin..unlike me n experiencing another heartache rightnow, sna nga makayanan korin..do i sound corny??? cencia n ala kc me masabihan, super depress lng tlga me, i just coudnt find the right guy. thanks for ur time…hope u can be my friend.

  35. 35    Susan June 21, 2006 at 8:52 am

    eloww…i kinda feel you coz i’m also going thru that process of “spiritual hibernation” these days…i’ve never read any blog but this, maybe i was anxious of the intro hehehe…anything of “FAITH” and “GOD” really attracts my attention…i think you’re a man who is kinda weird but have a deep faith to our one and only Savior Jesus Christ… GodblessU and keep the faith always alive!!!

  36. 36    -c l-l e-' June 21, 2006 at 11:14 am

    WOW!!

    dont worry, I do odd things as well -^_,^-

    God Bless…

  37. 37    Xavier June 21, 2006 at 12:44 pm

    who is HE?
    Theres so many god you know, so many religions

  38. 38    mia June 21, 2006 at 2:07 pm

    hi..
    ur story is so touchable!!!!
    jst continue ur life and be happy everyday!!! i want to be ur friend…gud day!

  39. 39    Anne Grace June 21, 2006 at 5:46 pm

    “Tou see that faith worked together with his works, and by these works faith was perfected” James 2:22

    Well then, congratulation brother. the lord jesus is so victorius in you for such realization as shown in this line of yours “this month i kinda forgot fulfilling my
    due in giving my share in His glory as i do every month for my grateful.
    He touches me this way, reminds me that i have lived so posh, i start to forgetting where i
    get it. i was sad, angry & confuse ofcourse but somehow i’m happy.”

    “For whom the Lord loves He disciplines, and He scourges every son whom He receives.” Heb. 12:6….See, He loves you so dearly so just continue praising him for such lost.

  40. 40    jimmy June 21, 2006 at 7:05 pm

    hi

  41. 41    Maria elsa June 21, 2006 at 7:17 pm

    .. YoU knOw whAt i aM reAlly amAzEd witH yOur bLog..i mean with waT yoU havE post..!! i dOnt ussally Click the “reAd morE” in blOgs.. bUt yoUr poSt really hOokEd my AttEntion..!! i jUst DrOp bY juSt tO sAy thAt juSt bE voCal With yOur eMotioNs.. thEres a reAson fOr evErythinG..!! jUst belivE iN yoUr drEams and jusT “WALK BY FAITH” and im suRe everythinG will gonna bE finE..!! God is EvErythinG.. He is alWays WatcHinG ovEr yOu just call him anD talk tO hiM..!! CONGRATULATIONS DUDE>>>!! I am toUchEd with the message yOu wantEd tO shaRe wiTh uS…!!! Till nExT timE.. TAkE caRe alWayz…!!

  42. 42    Vanessa June 21, 2006 at 7:17 pm

    all i can say is “wow!” your one in a million.
    i like reading blogs like yours. it inspire me so much and my spirit bloom once again. GOD is so great and He never forget us. your one of the LORDs creations why im stil living in this world though hostile still amazing because of His loving kindness.
    im so touched. i feel relieved for there is still a person like you.
    live your life the way u want it to be according to GODs will.
    here’s for u n for all: “Always be ready to give a defense to everyone who asks you a reason for the hope that is in you.” _1Peter 3:15

  43. 43    sHaLLy June 21, 2006 at 7:51 pm

    itz nice…………
    well, i tnk ur r gud

  44. 44    ivory June 21, 2006 at 8:20 pm

    wla akong ma SAY kundi WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  45. 45    mary anne June 21, 2006 at 8:40 pm

    WOW HOW NYS I LOVE IT

  46. 46    Jas June 21, 2006 at 8:52 pm

    from ur previous blogs, u’ve said something about the many heart-lashing experiences you’ve had and how they made you confused and your life lonesome,,,i hope i got it right,,,–anyway, it’s nice that your faith is still intact despite those times that you have to endure pain…nice painting..

  47. 47    Janice June 21, 2006 at 9:42 pm

    it is my first time to read a blog..actually not as intended..yet i didnt regret since your letter seemed soulful and interesting…i admire you being a good writer that emphasized God as our Mentor and Savior..I only knew few who have the capacity to touch other’s life and beliefs since you speak for your self with no hesitations…and just be your self! Just continue life’s journey since life is a never ending journey…dont let those pains & failures ruin your life..God is up there & He will never ever let us down…If u seemed things are happening so badly , take it as a compliment..God gave us test and sacrifices since He knew that we could make it…Be proud instead, He trusted You!!! janice carcedo here….

  48. 48    wala June 22, 2006 at 12:05 am

    i think im having the same experience with you.. i use to be an “artist” on my own.. i draw, i write simple poems, i do creative things.. they serve as my outlet of the burden i feel inside.. but on the past few month.. i dont know how to express my feelings.. i forget how to appreciate the little things God has made.. my eyes and mind were blinded by negative thoughts.. i dont even pray when i wake up in the morning or thank GOD for what he did for me.. i hope i could surpass this challenge in life.. GOD Bless to us all! (you had a nice paiting posted!) hope we could be friends. hehe

  49. 49    graal June 22, 2006 at 12:16 am

    wow! think dats great..

  50. 50    banag June 22, 2006 at 12:30 am

    its nice to see u……

  51. 51    'buBblEbLuEgUm' June 22, 2006 at 2:50 am

    your blog post just making me craving to read more man..keep it up…

    niwae..Nurul here…

  52. 52    Ronald June 22, 2006 at 5:36 am

    This is the very first time i ever read a blog in friendster, and i was delighted by your entries. How I wish I could write as good as you do. I’m a bit insecure ’bout my english skills, and i always think that i’ll make mistakes along the way. Anyways, thank you for posting such wonderful masterpieces. I’ll be waiting for your next entry. Thanks.

  53. 53    brixs June 22, 2006 at 6:21 am

    i realy impres you what you wroteita rely graet.

  54. 54    Lovelle June 22, 2006 at 9:38 am

    well, thats cmple lessons in lyf that we shud lern…

  55. 55    lovely June 22, 2006 at 6:14 pm

    hi hello,

  56. 56    angel June 22, 2006 at 7:25 pm

    hi,,

  57. 57    aubrey June 22, 2006 at 8:16 pm

    im touched! really! i can relate to your story! i know, believe that everything happening to us gods has a purpose for it. just keep on believing, keep the faith, enjoy life, enjoy evrything u have materials, friends. enjoy every minute of yuor life coz life is evrything!!!!

  58. 58    Agnes June 22, 2006 at 8:29 pm

    hey, i was really touched by your letter… yes, things do happen for a reason…we might not understand it at first, but we will–eventually…

    and yes–we need pain and misfortunes–to remind us of the more important things in life…

    i thank the heavens for your letter, i am moved–and reminded… thank you so much!

  59. 59    Paulynne June 22, 2006 at 8:32 pm

    hi how’s it goin? ur letter is so great. it sure touches other people’s lives. i agree with u that things happen for a reason. like for instance when u lost ur mobile it did something to u tht made u realize of some things.. that lead to writing this very inpirational letter. the reaction from the readers was quite comforting, knowing that there are people out there who still have that strong faith in god…

  60. 60    Agnes June 22, 2006 at 8:32 pm

    i was really touched by your letter…yes, things do happen for a reason–we might not understand it at first, but we will–eventually….

    and yes, we need pain and misfortunes to remind us of the more important things in life…

    i want to thank you for your letter…i was deeply moved by it! i hope to become your friend…God speed.

  61. 61    Noor June 22, 2006 at 9:41 pm

    hi im new her in friendster….. hop we can chat sometime if u not busy .. i think ur a cool guy and im a cool gal so drop by sometime my profile till then see ..ya

  62. 62    tom June 22, 2006 at 10:11 pm

    whew! what a great message from GOd i mean from you. I really admire you. your faith is very strong that is what we need not only in hard times but in all the times. although this my first time to read this blog but i was happy that here are some guys and gals out there are willing to hear the word fromGOD. Honestly i really admire you for being strong because i myself im very weak specially when the problems comes but because of your message ive learned how to become strong and trust GOD on evrything

  63. 63    'LaRnS' June 22, 2006 at 10:21 pm

    i was so touched by your letter..it is such a very inspiring message..
    it really touches anybody’s heart.
    you’re such a nice person i think.i hope i can be that strong..
    thank you for the letter..GOD BLESS!!!

  64. 64    jennifer June 22, 2006 at 10:54 pm

    right there i hope He will continue touching you.Godspeed.

  65. 65    ruben June 23, 2006 at 12:06 am

    hello
    thats good enough for us as a child of God because he made everything for us
    im happy for that word that i read from ur icon

  66. 66    Pharicel June 23, 2006 at 1:32 am

    hi!
    i was rily tOuch bY ur LeTTer…..ur ryt everything hir in this wOrLd hPPen wid pUrPOse….!
    gOd Always try us..he wil nOt gve us what we cAn bear!!!
    gOdSpped!!!!!!

  67. 67    Pharicel June 23, 2006 at 1:33 am

    hi!
    i was rily tOuch bY ur LeTTer…..ur ryt everything hir in this wOrLd hPPen wid pUrPOse….!
    gOd Always try us..he wil nOt gve us what we cAn bear!!!
    gOdSpped!!!!!!

  68. 68    Nelly June 23, 2006 at 1:55 am

    hi!
    i practically read all your personal scripts, even your archives last year and i think you have a…. somewhat remarkable life out there and i know that the circumstances that evolved around you will somehow make you a well rounded person..just follow your dreams and stand up to what you believe in! von voyage!!…take care your still young jzt love your mom she loves you………see you in Africa!

  69. 69    -red rOcks- June 23, 2006 at 2:01 am

    i love your entries! :) and hey, nice painting! =)

  70. 70    Anrea June 23, 2006 at 2:05 am

    An entry that moves a lot of people… nice. Keep writing!

  71. 71    dhaz June 23, 2006 at 2:27 am

    all i can say,keep in god;theres saw many reason why? we lost the things that we love but we must understand thats is a part of our life.cuase nobody is perfect.continue you good paint who know’s maybe someday your posted your name in a good museum.god bless you.and alwayz pray 4 our god.god luck.have nice day

  72. 72    melody June 23, 2006 at 3:01 am

    hi… knw wat??? derz rily depth in how u think… and i guez, dat rily counts in dz game called life…

    keep on walkin’ wd God…

    after all…

    He rily do love us…

  73. 73    ranee ruth June 23, 2006 at 3:22 am

    nice entry… i hope someday i’d be able to do what you have done… i’m still hiding behind the walls i’ve built around me… it had become my prison… i can’t express myself like others can… i hope someday i’d be able to really be me… we can’t hide forever.. right?
    anyway… i really liked your entry…
    take care…

  74. 74    ranee ruth June 23, 2006 at 3:22 am

    nice entry… i hope someday i’d be able to do what you have done… i’m still hiding behind the walls i’ve built around me… it had become my prison… i can’t express myself like others can… i hope someday i’d be able to really be me… we can’t hide forever.. right?
    anyway… i really liked your entry…
    take care…

  75. 75    lawrence June 23, 2006 at 3:35 am

    You know,When times are Bad,God is Good.it,s true.as a Catholic person,i always thank God in every blessings that He Gave to me everyday.Don,t forget to thank God always in the Blessings that He gave to you.By the way my e mail add is Lawrence_Cobilla@Yahoo.Com i Hope you will be my friend in Friendster.God bless.

  76. 76    K-e June 23, 2006 at 4:35 am

    whoaa..dude..that’s so deep.it’s common thing if you cannot share and show ur feelings.Because we r guys n ’sharing emotion’ is not our flicks.But share ur emo in the blog might helps.so, keep the faith,bro.

  77. 77    ROJANIE June 23, 2006 at 5:09 am

    Touch! That’s all i can say, you’ve enlightened me…tnx!!!

  78. 78    Ira June 23, 2006 at 5:15 am

    Yup, Everythings happen for a reason, good reason of course.. sometimes we think we are the best planner for our lifes, but we have to realize his plan is BETTER than us…Just keep the faith,bro..

  79. 79    Ritchie June 23, 2006 at 6:50 am

    it’s my 1st time to read a blog.. actually n0t as intended,, yet i didn’t regret since ur letter seemed soulful and interesting.. i was really touched by ur letter.. yah,, things do happen for a reason. we might not understand it at first,, but we will eventually… Just keep on praying with “HIM”… GOD’S WATCHING YOU!!!! if there’s a will,, there is always a way… if u can’t be good atleast don’t be bad!!!!always take care of yourself!!! nice painting by the way!! ok,, bye..

  80. 80    Ray June 23, 2006 at 11:09 am

    Just lost my iPod and stumbled onto your page. I respect your work.

  81. 81    uma June 23, 2006 at 2:23 pm

    a very thouching story :) Thanks

  82. 82    Fritzie June 23, 2006 at 4:56 pm

    Another great entry… You’re wonderful, you know that?

  83. 83    gena June 23, 2006 at 6:03 pm

    na touch nman po me sa letter u…prng may k2iba sau?ewan ko!pero can u be my frend?tnx……..gena

  84. 84    benson June 23, 2006 at 7:03 pm

    hmm..hi there!cheer up dude..how nice of you.inspite of the loss of your fone,your not mad at your self.hehehe be mad dude!! God is always looking at you-

  85. 85    Xai June 23, 2006 at 7:13 pm

    hi,how r u?
    i hope ur mobile phone will be come back to u
    it’s nice to see u

  86. 86    Dayleen June 23, 2006 at 9:11 pm

    Hey Better u know wat? U touched many peoples lives thru your nice words…. thank you so much!

  87. 87    Melvin June 23, 2006 at 9:24 pm

    st first i’am not interested reading messages in blogs cuase I know they are all wasting my time but your message contains a lot of beautifull messages tht described a real person and honestly I’am touched with your message dudes.

  88. 88    bibom June 23, 2006 at 9:55 pm

    hi

  89. 89    Spoiler June 23, 2006 at 10:16 pm

    you got a point…….

    i agree with you, dude^_^

    kip on rockin…….

  90. 90    EMELYN June 23, 2006 at 11:35 pm

    hi!I believe in your new outlook in lyf…can u b my new friend?

  91. 91    Mai June 23, 2006 at 11:51 pm

    hai boy…?

  92. 92    Raijin June 23, 2006 at 11:59 pm

    thanx its all i can say….

  93. 93    myczel June 24, 2006 at 12:12 am

    things happen 4a rison, coz verything u do will always leave a mark..you can olways correct d mistakes that u make..what is more important is what inside u..in lyf we undergo in pain which will make us a better person..alwyas be the best u can be and u must allow urself to be held and guided by the who holds you…

  94. 94    jeho June 24, 2006 at 12:17 am

    hmm…

  95. 95    Rose June 24, 2006 at 12:18 am

    you rely so much on your phone that you never appreciate good things GOD have given you…..

  96. 96    kaycelyn June 24, 2006 at 12:21 am

    hi lang ho…..
    hehe
    la lng
    u dont know me and
    i dont know u
    l lng

  97. 97    LysSa June 24, 2006 at 2:05 am

    hi der..lyk others i just got interestd reading ur blog..wow..you sure rily a guud poet…and ur guud in expressing ur emotions wid words..wel i dont rili know u but i understand u..rily..i’m impressed wid yah..nyway kip on doing blogs..ehhehe..dey touches us..rily..i lyk reading stuffs lyk wat u just wrote…nyway keep ur faith wid God..and nyway God is always der lukin at us and waitin for us to remmber him… :)

  98. 98    Elisa June 24, 2006 at 2:07 am

    As human as we are we sometimes make mistakes. But that doesnt really matter if you u put God always in your heart and in your mind. Life is wonderful and full of challenges, if you made it on the first time then there’s no reason why you can’t do it on the second time… Life is beautiful and full of meanings just enjoy it and you can feel that everyday is a challenging day with the Lord!… No matter what it takes as long as you know where you belong and where you wanna go after all…

    Since then, for me? “Life is like a stairs”how big is the problem, how satisfied is the answer….
    hehehehhhh….

  99. 99    Maelin June 24, 2006 at 2:26 am

    your blog entry caught my eye when i was about to log-in… at first, i was only curious of how you lost your cellphone… but then, after i finished reading it, i smiled to myself coz it happens to me, too… god keeps reminding me to be grateful, and not to forget him… thank u for reminding me too… :)

  100. 100    Afini June 24, 2006 at 3:05 am

    when i read ur blog,its remind me when my cellphone was cheated by one of my friends. i bought it by my saving money n of course i love it very much.then, i just pray to god.. who knows..last week, the cheater post my cellphone back to my house. but he didnt tell his name.. what can i say,just pray alot :)

  101. 101    Jesse June 24, 2006 at 5:51 am

    u going to be ok. :) santai aja. but then jangan terlalu santai … until everydays seems like yesterday. :)

  102. 102    Kharmell June 24, 2006 at 6:40 am

    your great!!!

  103. 103    Nicolae June 24, 2006 at 7:09 am

    hey!
    i’m glad that you have known urself well.. we dnt know each other but as I read your confession, i just feel blessed also and greatfull for you.. that God is working into your life, as wellas in me… and your right everything that is happening to us has a purpose and not by mere coincidence… God Bless bro. ingats…^_^

  104. 104    Divine June 24, 2006 at 7:29 am

    yeah you’re right!!!

  105. 105    clara June 24, 2006 at 8:08 am

    awwwww…watta nice post….i can tell that ur such a great guy and u hav great deal of faith in god……keep it up dude….believe in ur self…..really love ur post!!!

  106. 106    karen June 24, 2006 at 10:49 pm

    by merely reading your post i could say that you’re such a great person!! keep it up…

    how i wish could put up a blog such as yours,,, you have a broad mind… *smiles*

  107. 107    Young Wun June 25, 2006 at 12:12 am

    dude no offense but u gotta go t grammar class.i guess the topic was not bad.u also gotta remember not all of us are dreamers.those people who dream just doesnt have the guts to face the reality that they have to deal with.i know every single person in this world is unique.ive notice another thing.u differenciate urself too much.you’re human too.

    always remember.
    the deepness of one’s thought is not of the thinker.
    it’s of the reader.

  108. 108    jerold June 25, 2006 at 12:29 am

    hi to all

  109. 109    Jason June 25, 2006 at 1:27 am

    Hello.Good One Bro!

  110. 110    Ashley June 25, 2006 at 3:23 am

    hi to all gud day

  111. 111    zEzEzE June 25, 2006 at 4:50 am

    okay as i always said that u’re rock!! hmmph i really do like your painting it’s soo abstract and full of meaning..
    keep on painting if you really like it don’t stop for doing what u really love keep up your spirit dude!!!!

  112. 112    Jas June 25, 2006 at 5:36 am

    well cool dude, u just did like another smash hit…what does it mean when one says “i respect life?”
    you’re lucky coz you were able to let go so easily, and move on as if you lost not a thing so dear to you…
    i envy the way you create things–ur paintings, ur blogs,,,,i also do envy the way u think of the world, the belief you have in God, and the way you view life…
    if i could, if only time’s on my side, i’ll dwell in a world where i could be oblivious to the harsh realities haunting my life…i wish to be lulled by the earth’s and wind’s embrace…i wish to float, just drift by and forget all the pains and losses i’ve had and still havin…i wish to think, to create and make things happen,…just like you—i wish to extract the meaning of life and quit this seemingly nonsensical process thru which my life is going…waahhh,,,i’ve been babbling, i guess it’s not making sense anymore…just wanna say ur write-up’s great…

  113. 113    karen June 25, 2006 at 4:33 pm

    you remind me of someone who is very important in my life…
    continue knowing yourself. fell free cause
    GOD HAS given us the freedom!
    you had made a good job!
    GODBLESS………

  114. 114    Bong June 25, 2006 at 6:08 pm

    great blog! u have a talent in writing. but one thing i noticed though is u r what u r. u xpress urself well and that’s more than enough.
    art work is simply great too! KEEP ON DISCOVERING URSELF amidst ur simplicity and limitations. U R GREAT AS A PERSON BECAUSE U R U!
    tnx 4 sharing urSELR 2 us. . .

  115. 115    charmaigne June 25, 2006 at 6:16 pm

    you lost much coveted cellphone for a reason which reminded me of the homily of our parish priest yesterday who will be transferred to his new religious assignment… CHANGE IS FOR THE BETTER. on the other hand, your lost had diverted your attention to the arts where you were able to vent out your emotions. still something productive…. riding a bicycle… ahh, i can relate with that.. the wind on your face is too refreshing that it clears one’s troubled mind…. God bless.

  116. 116    maureen June 25, 2006 at 7:33 pm

    Well, as they say, “nasa huli ang pagsisisi”. Know what? mabuti rin na nangyari sayo yun kasi at leat you have realized something better diba? That`s life, and so you should have been nice to everybody. kahit na sa panahon ng problema, dapat maganda pa rin ang tingin mo sa lahat ng bagay lalo na sa lahay ng taong nasa paligid mo.

  117. 117    micheee June 25, 2006 at 8:40 pm

    dont feel sad were the victims of gods we bid ourselves forsake this lyf its not the end this is only the beggining im here one of youre burning hells we should take our lyf in hours devils are just there not to be mistaken but to be corrected im one of youre satan bid me bite me creep me its uor lyf made by this hell destiny

  118. 118    shayne June 25, 2006 at 9:53 pm

    wow!………….I was really really impress in your letter…….talaga….kc bihira lng meh makakita ng boy n kagaya mo…you know what i really realy like to read some story,poem and etc…..you know believing in god is very important because he is the one who protect us in every minute,everyday and every hour…..im a christian person that’s why i know what god gave us and doing us……..sa totoo lng nakaka touch ang message mo hah…..insfairness

  119. 119    shayne June 25, 2006 at 10:00 pm

    helow……………………………..

  120. 120    Philic June 26, 2006 at 12:23 am

    Hi! I was JUSt amazed how good U R in xpressing ur fellings and emotions !!!!! contrary to wat u’d said wen u r still young!!!!! atleast, you did it!!!!!!!!
    I ws just curious and 8 aroused when i had seen the catchy line u had used! huhhh!!!!! “confessions of a black heart”, 8s reli gud to live free!!!! day by day you feel invigoruos within!
    kip d faith and god bless!!!!

  121. 121    Ellie June 26, 2006 at 4:19 am

    Hi…
    Your letter touched my heart, maybe because some of them related to me.
    Be truth to yourself.
    Loosing something in our life even if its things or anything make us remind that there is a GOD, the almighty. He is the only one that put and takes back all we have in these worlds. So cheer up okay. Take care… God bless…
    “Seek ‘ye first the Kingdom and righteousness of GOD and all these thing shall be added unto you”

    ellie

  122. 122    Jem June 26, 2006 at 5:26 pm

    you’ll never know someone real, not unless you’ve got what’s inside his heart!!!
    keep it real dude!!!

  123. 123    criz June 26, 2006 at 5:34 pm

    napaka panget!!!!!!!!!!!!ang korni kaya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  124. 124    linda June 26, 2006 at 6:44 pm

    hi

  125. 125    alicia June 26, 2006 at 6:50 pm

    hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

  126. 126    alicia June 26, 2006 at 6:52 pm

    can u be my friend????????????????????????

  127. 127    Lilibeth June 26, 2006 at 8:02 pm

    Hi Beth here, everytime i open my Friendster and saw ur blog i just can’t help to open nd read it (hihihi) knowing myself, im so lazy reading other people dramas in life…anyway, im amazed ‘coz u see things in different ways…i wish i cud be like u. “wink” Always thank God for all the blessings..God Bless

  128. 128    Antonius June 26, 2006 at 9:32 pm

    Hi, just wanna say that everything could happen in this world. But one thing that the everlasting, only in GOD… ANnie

  129. 129    med June 26, 2006 at 11:33 pm

    Hi! wanna be ur friend…f udont mind.

  130. 130    NeztLutchu June 27, 2006 at 4:16 am

    i’m speechless…
    nice to heard ur story…
    very touchable….
    nice to know you…
    i’m agnes…
    c u
    i’ll read ur blog again…

  131. 131    Gretchen June 27, 2006 at 4:34 am

    never thought i was in on it, for the first time i read ur blog…dont know the reason why!…But anyways,you really catch my attention…Such experience hah! well, i believe everythings happened w/ a reason…thou we may not seen it the time we needed an answer, coz if we do, what would be our faith in Him…! Good for you! you find the right person to lead your way…Yah, your right it’s not easy to lost the important things/someone in our life…esp. when we thought we lose the other piece that will complete us…
    But that’s life friend! Keep goin…You just found the most important person of all,just trust Him friend…good luck

  132. 132    med June 27, 2006 at 6:21 am

    wana be ur friend…cn’t u..?

  133. 133    Marjorie Anne June 27, 2006 at 8:47 am

    nice art work!!!!you’re very lucky b’coz you do have a lot of talent!!!!

  134. 134    rebecca June 27, 2006 at 11:51 am

    hi handsome!!!!!!!!!!!! hehhehhheheh……………rooooottttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!

  135. 135    Khymberlie June 27, 2006 at 5:26 pm

    Hi, Im khym..I think we have the same situation..all this time I’ve been living with wordlyings..and not to think that my father is a Church minister but as time passed by, I came to realize that Life is not just all about being cool,not just about having all the night outs and all having all the vices..but instead its all about trusting God that He is the “driver” of our life and He can really do all things which we cannt do on our own.!Thanks for having me feel that I’n not alone with that Kind of problem!Thanks and Godbless!

  136. 136    zuki June 27, 2006 at 5:45 pm

    hmmm…an artist through and through…u said u have a hard time expressing ur sentiments, but i see u have expressed it very eloquently…i guess i can relate to what u feel (in general too)bout the loss of the mobile thingy and other stuff…the painting’s good but it contradicts your mood…hehe…well, life’s like that…hear,hear–only a man who has felt ultimate despair is capable of feeling ultimate bliss (The count of monte cristo-alexandre dumas)

  137. 137    Yee Lin June 27, 2006 at 6:22 pm

    Really nice abstract drawing there. U said u’re not good at expressing urself (correctly) but i guess u express urself in Art pretty well huh :D
    Haven seen sucha sensitive male soul in a looooooooong time.

    May God be with you always dude!

    = Just a stranger =

  138. 138    jaime June 27, 2006 at 7:39 pm

    This is the first time im reading a blog aside from my friends what i can say is amen to you bro.

  139. 139    Alby June 27, 2006 at 9:14 pm

    in other words: “GOD STOLE MY CELLPHONE!!!11″

  140. 140    jonahvieve June 27, 2006 at 9:52 pm

    I’m glad to know somebody who gives glory to God in public such as the net…
    God bless you more…

  141. 141    Ushi June 27, 2006 at 10:41 pm

    Hi…
    u r gud artist even don’t know how to express ur emotions(as u said)…
    But better late than never!!!

    Just be urself… and make urself happy!!!

  142. 142    maimai June 27, 2006 at 10:49 pm

    wow man, that’s very,very nice confession,, i think we could jive into that kind of situation..i’m looking forward to make a lot of friends like you.. a man with no fear of expressing himself..and sharing the things that others might not have known inside themselves.. m proud of you man!! you’ve just did the right thing.. mind not ur cellphone.. all in this world of changes are temporal..meant for changes, you’ve changed for the better.. goodluck…

  143. 143    Norman June 27, 2006 at 10:53 pm

    Alwayzzz Keep The Faith in GOD!

    enjoy LIFE!

  144. 144    kristine June 28, 2006 at 2:11 am

    u rily inspire me!!kip up kuya im juzt 16 pro i intindi u!!

  145. 145    shayne June 28, 2006 at 2:53 am

    MUZTA NA LIFE NATIN?????????

  146. 146    Stella Mariz June 28, 2006 at 3:37 am

    ei dude ang drama mu nman but its okey….mrami pa nmang iba dude ei….

  147. 147    Fernando June 28, 2006 at 3:37 am

    keep ur spirit

  148. 148    Grace June 28, 2006 at 3:44 am

    … totoo tlg sinabi mo…

    in unexpected times, God communicates to all of us….

    and we really need to spend some time reflecting what’s happening in our lives even those events that are very
    usual or common…

    have a blessed day ahead…

    everything nga has a purpose…
    your blog reminds me to reflect… salamat:)

  149. 149    Janvier June 28, 2006 at 4:53 am

    mmmhh… ur blog build ur character a lot… massivve…
    person….

  150. 150    ANGELA June 28, 2006 at 6:13 am

    WOW,,,PRAISE GOD FOR YOU!!IT WAS NICE A STORY…KEEP IT UP..HAVE FAITH AND ALWAYS BE GUIDED W/GOD`S EVERLASTING LOVE..GOD BLESS!!

  151. 151    kaydee June 28, 2006 at 6:44 am

    gosh..u definitely, can write (and paint),dude..just imagine how many lives uv touched! thanks for peeps like u! twas worth all the time and costs in reading evrythin here..keep it up and godbless..

  152. 152    thiza rose June 28, 2006 at 8:09 am

    good God! i’m touched: had been a keeper of emotions too and it’s nice to know i’m not alone.. Glory to you, and be BETTE
    R

  153. 153    mau June 28, 2006 at 5:35 pm

    Hey! Congratulations for a new you, a new and better person..Definitely, it will be a better life ahead..Godspeed..

  154. 154    Marithel June 28, 2006 at 6:52 pm

    What a nice sharing. i was impressed your new you this time. sometimes it took us time to realize that someone up there is taking care of us. Life is what we make it. m sure ul live life happily this time.

  155. 155    Pearly Joy June 28, 2006 at 7:24 pm

    elow………….

  156. 156    sharra kay June 28, 2006 at 7:59 pm

    sad story?!wanna hear mine?!anyways your painting looks good,and i guess it reflects with your personality.keep it up!

  157. 157    tita June 28, 2006 at 11:51 pm

    I think you always can see anything from the both side, and
    keep the positive side no matter what, and in the end you do best in anything you can do. In that way I believe you could learn to be wiser and wiser. one side from many sides of life is for learning…right?

  158. 158    mohammad June 29, 2006 at 12:57 am

    hai…aku ngantuk la baca blog kau

  159. 159    pillow June 29, 2006 at 1:01 am

    its just a fon:)buy a new one.

  160. 160    Daniel June 29, 2006 at 1:44 am

    Ei bro, nice blog. Its very inspirational. I dont know why i suddently became interested in reading other peoples blogs. But I didn’t regret it. Niwey, dont focus on material things, have it your concern to please God in everything you do! In the end, its between you and God, not between you and others. Continue to do what you want and make the most out of it, as long as it is good and pleasing in the eyes of God. Niwey, luvd ur painting! Tca. God Bless!

  161. 161    Meynard June 29, 2006 at 2:18 am

    hi bro im amaze for your blog just relaz and stay cool for all your doing.

  162. 162    jelica June 29, 2006 at 3:42 am

    if we luk at life through our eyes,we wil miss the point.. Life is not about us..it’s about God-the One who loves you so much..If u wil begin seeking Jesus.. not for religion sake or guilt sake- but for relationship sake, u wil find Him..actually He’s been seeking u out :)..then u will know who u really are and ur purpose :) He made me, and continuously makes me, who i really am :) Believe, when He whispers in your heart that He truly loves you :)

  163. 163    jamby June 29, 2006 at 4:38 am

    hi ur a good ettetude and very truth full,and really really a good matirials things,and good bless you loves you:

  164. 164    triPpEr aQ June 29, 2006 at 7:54 am

    ei…may i asked somthing?

  165. 165    blink June 29, 2006 at 9:33 pm

    u r so bad boy………………………….u know that ur killing ur mother……..

  166. 166    zhalya June 29, 2006 at 9:33 pm

    hey
    u nih sapa?

  167. 167    Jonafe June 30, 2006 at 4:07 am

    wewww…i dont really often read blogs but seeing your blog really get my attention..maybe because i can relate to you..what was happening to you was the same as mine..fantastic! i don’t imagine that there are people like you..
    you know all i can say is that, we realize what is the real importance of GOD in our lives when we experience problems…i usually say, i know that all things that happen to us has reasons and all have solutions…and i believe in that…just go on with GOD and keep the faith!! Trust HIM and let HIM lead your way…GOD BLESS!!

  168. 168    Jason June 30, 2006 at 4:45 am

    whoa man… ur words dug right into my soul. and i thought i knew myself already… phewww… u gave me inspiration… a reminder… that even the simplest of actions call for appreciation, and thankfulness. God really works wonders, and works through people u dont even know, not to mention ur miles away from where i am. ei, u got a friend in here already. hope to hear from you bro. God bless you!

  169. 169    angeNINA June 30, 2006 at 5:45 am

    OMG..I’m impressed..What a worth-reading blog! Two thumbs up.. ;-)

  170. 170    leanna June 30, 2006 at 5:22 pm

    U knw ur worth s nt for who u r, nt even for wht u hv..bt for wht God has mde of u & wht others hv become bcoz of u! Continue to inspire others w/ ur lyf & ur dvotion to God.It’s rili worth my tym reading ur blog.Keep d fire up!gOdbLesS>>”,

  171. 171    monica June 30, 2006 at 9:13 pm

    hi i read your letter, i really appreciate your effort to make your life good eventhough you just realized that you are coward. but doesn’t matter just put it in charge to experience! you know when i was read your letter i affected because i experience that circumstances to your life. just stay cool and faithfull and good boy!!!!!!!!!!!!

  172. 172    Mikela June 30, 2006 at 9:45 pm

    hi! the second sentence you wrote caught my attention. I’m just glad that there are still people (male, specifically) who are very open when it comes to matters about the Lord! :)…. have a great day ahead… Keep the faith and always trust that the Lord allows everything to happen for a reason! :) God bless!

  173. 173    Vic July 1, 2006 at 12:17 am

    what can i say??ur lucky to be part of this cruel world..that’s life,,full of mystery..anyway..enjoy life as you stil alive..amen

  174. 174    Abigail July 1, 2006 at 12:22 am

    hi..i was touched by ur letter..were in the sAme Ctuation kYa cguro na touch aQ sa lEtteR mo..and niCe art..hope we can be friends..

  175. 175    jHeSsA July 1, 2006 at 12:48 am

    hey…i sort of read ur “confessions” and i thot i myt tell u that expressing emotions wud make u feel better… i myself dont express my emotions sometimes…lyk wen sum1 dies… i havent experienced crying wen sum1 dies…
    u know, sumtyms, its just great if u express wat u feel… there is nothing wrong with it… expressing ur emotions thru ur art works is great… sumtyms i do that too… that’s all i can saY… chao…:)

  176. 176    chika July 1, 2006 at 1:41 am

    enjoy in your life,,!dont suddenly,,,ok,,,!!!

  177. 177    florie July 1, 2006 at 3:55 am

    hi!!!!!
    i just want you to know that JESUS loves you……
    HE will never let you down and HE is always there to help you and comfort you in times that you are in trouble…….
    i encourage you to know more about GOD and try or dont just try but read BIBLES so that your life would be enlighten…….

    caring
    florie

  178. 178    florie July 1, 2006 at 3:56 am

    hi!!!!!
    i just want you to know that JESUS loves you……
    HE will never let you down and HE is always there to help you and comfort you in times that you are in trouble…….
    i encourage you to know more about GOD and try or dont just try but read BIBLES so that your life would be enlighten…….

    caring
    florie

  179. 179    pinkee July 1, 2006 at 9:19 am

    hey kid. everything do happen for a meaning. u were partly right in what u think and say. but don’t lose faith in HIM. always believe in HIM and he’ll always be there for u. god bless!

  180. 180    trisha anne July 1, 2006 at 6:44 pm

    Hi! Better luck next time na lang!

  181. 181    jhElliE July 1, 2006 at 7:25 pm

    wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!diz iz the 1st time dat i ever read ur letter

  182. 182    amiel July 1, 2006 at 8:20 pm

    ei… nice letter, i want you to read Jeremiah 29:11. God Bless you!!!

  183. 183    jay-ann July 2, 2006 at 3:05 am

    don`t worry…….God will never leave you helpless or alone….just read Hebrew 13:5……in the bible….you know,everything happens for a reason….that`s the law of environment……goodluck to you!

  184. 184    ahmad July 2, 2006 at 3:35 am

    i don’t know babarblas. arum_sexy@friendster.com

  185. 185    ghie-ai July 2, 2006 at 4:02 am

    oh god i red u’r blog!!same accident huh!!yah nanyre din sakin yun!!yesterday!!!yah like what they’ve said!!evrything happens has a reason!!!the important thing is you learn that leson!!!and keep on praising him!!!god will make a way wheter seems to be no way!!!take care

  186. 186    Dyan July 4, 2006 at 6:24 am

    hi like ur blog, how to put those pics in your blog,,

  187. 187    ' ' ' 'bunDeLaN July 18, 2006 at 1:10 am

    wow..great pic..

  188. 188    Irvin July 19, 2006 at 1:45 pm

    wonderful.. the words, the meaning, the pic.. its the blog. hope to have this kind of blog.. grrr..

    you inspired me a lot about life. hope to catch you soon.

  189. 189    Jet July 23, 2006 at 8:38 am

    u think differently…feel in different way….act in different manner …but in one way or another, we are similar in many ways…however, u are more gifted, more skillful in ur craft of deliberating ur emotions….i aint got that wit..yet, i didnt despise myself….
    i love me, and i love the whole world to see me as me..

  190. 190    Y'o'J July 31, 2006 at 3:07 am

    people might fail to see the real you but dnt let it be a wall infront of you to see and love yourself. stop from time to time and look back..because you wont be where you are right now if you werent be what you were back then..

  191. 191    Joyce October 7, 2006 at 5:16 am

    For the word to be so powerfull,it must be upheld with faith…Dont believe what your eyes are telling you. All they show is limitation!

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