Bra1n-w@shed

last sunday i went to a CD store with ucha at Plaza Senayan. I want that CD so much from years. It was Enigma Trilogy, one package album contain 3 CDs from 3 of the early albums. it was damn expensive rather than i bought 3 seperate albums. but somehow i feel good. a flow of endorphine rushed between tiny lines in my head, giving me such feeling i never felt before. almost orgasm. hehe.
anyway, i was being promoted, a position i never thought, actually my friend’s was the one who’s looking for this position. even though people pass on good wishes, but actually i’m scared deep inside. as if there’s a big rock of responsiblity suddenly bump on my shoulders. it was the largest group account in my office (i work in a network marketing company). oh well, i leave it to God. my major weakness is my minim ability to memorize things. i can’t even remember what my friend’s just told me 10 minutes ago. there’s a saying: there’s no teacher who could teach anything new. they can just help us to remember things we always knew. and i stick by that. hahaha…
i’m listening to The Dream Of The Dolphin, a song Carl created for his beloved wife. nice.
and start thinking about what happened today. there’s this man (i dunno if he is under my management group) he asked for an exception for a purchase passed one day from the 90 days exchange rule. i said no. but he kept pushing and begging. i stood on my ground and reject him in the face. he asked me who gives me order, i said Anggit, warehouse manager. If you want an exception go to somebody who could give u, but not from me, i said. then he left to Anggit and he got it minutes later. then, i found out that this particular man was a very good friend of Anggit. a high school buddy. i didn’t like that. i mean, friend ok, but business is business. it’s not fair for other people. Anggit always told me to reject anyone who request such thing if its not the SOP. but look what he did. whatever. sometimes rules are not meant to be broken, but we just can’t help ourselves aren’t we. and damnit!!!! my PC are being attacked by some sort of spam virus. it won’t go even though i try to clean it with Norton & Mcafee updates. shit, must format. later. busy. it’s the end month and we are always busy, i am always busy. but i love it. the more stressed i get, the more pleasure sipped in. hehehehe….well, i guess this is the time where i’m crazy about my career. and my best gurl in the office, Dyan is leaving for Perth. her husband got transferred there. damn. gonna missed her so much with her squeaky voice, twirlling her hair and her pretty smiles. i gave her a photo CD with music from all of our journey working together. i put Madonna - What It Feels Like For a Girl as her soundtrack. kinda fits her criteria. i prays a lot these days becoz i don’t think i could handle all those accounts myself. hmmph..interesting though. i love challenge actually. makes me know what is my limitation and weaknesses. oh well, it’s getting late and gotta a big Friday heading for tomorrow. ciao!
-in every color there’s a light, in every stone sleeps a crystal-