23
Aug
06

Erotic Ego

Strangers he came towards me. behind the trees, i could see him from the path i make along the dark street lights. i was going home from work. 10.30pm it was exactly. i feel the shiver i always get when i feel something’s wrong. i talk with myself try to calm the me that start losing its logic way of thinking. here he comes, moving up slowly. undernourished ego sliding between the river of my words up inside. he just kept following me since the crossing bridge i always passed every night. as i listen my mp3, i know his presence were there but i just couldn’t see his physical form. as if my shadows were my friend, another part of me talking with me again. i feel secure for a moment there. my fingers makes tapping noise as i try to find something i could do in that dim night. weird and bizzare. a feeling i never felt but it’s good i’m telling you. my eyes so heavy and sleepy even i’m still walking and fighting my fading conciousness. i feel evil. evil to myself and untouchable for those sorround me. i lost myself in a world between that exact minutes. he told me everything i wanted to know all along. a secret that only me should know. i can feel his claw above my left shoulder, whispering to my ear in the hot air right into my ear drum. i smile for a moment. he’s still walking me home, lurking every corner of my sight, i cannot escape. he told me work is endless, a fantasy journey to self development. money isn’t the answer, it’s easy game everyone could play with. but this one is something really big. blending my soul and logic into a comparison with another being. a man holding his ciggarette looking at me. what he saw was a single man, not together. but he also feel his presence, through the cold and heavy atmosphere. he’s flying over to my other shoulder, still smilling with his devilish eyes. his mouth are shut tight, but his words is so strong in my ear. stabbed right into my chest. my fingers are trembling, i never been so scared yet so powerfull as the moment i was enjoying. as if my skilled multiplied, i smiled to him but only my eyes were moving. and told me again, how do i get out of here. out of this numb life path, i know i’m running in circles. this week i see so many people, old, young, lust, love, smart, dumb, rich, poor, they are just the same as others. humans. he told me i’m worthy only to myself. he show me his teeth this time. but his cold fingers strike me on the back of my neck, tenderly, so soft and wise. he never touch the ground we walk upon. i’m almost home. he looked at me straight in my eye, he told me something: "i’ll be right back. i always will." and he’s gone.




150 Responses to “Erotic Ego”


  1. 1    jason August 23, 2006 at 8:09 pm

    hi

  2. 2    maria clodelle August 23, 2006 at 8:13 pm

    hello

  3. 3    Jenda August 23, 2006 at 10:05 pm

    wow!u impressed me..why dont u try to write a novel?….

  4. 4    Mark Christian August 23, 2006 at 11:04 pm

    u r superb…!!!!!

  5. 5    Alvin August 23, 2006 at 11:15 pm

    Sometimes you got to evaluate who you are in order to determine what sort of life you want to live in… Lets share some pointers..

  6. 6    Wafah August 23, 2006 at 11:45 pm

    i agree with jendra.
    an aspiring novelist.
    you make ur stories really intriguing two thumbs up!

  7. 7    ika August 23, 2006 at 11:55 pm

    yeah..u r the one who can play with words..can create varieties situation with ur words..keep writing..i luv to read it.

  8. 8    Mystery August 24, 2006 at 12:44 am

    good…but pls work on your grammar.

  9. 9    safuraa August 24, 2006 at 2:04 am

    hey!!! uou make stories.. ummmmppp… :o)

  10. 10    DeadSoul August 24, 2006 at 2:37 am

    hhhmm…

    becarefu…

    -Jus A KiD

  11. 11    madelyn August 24, 2006 at 4:15 am

    hey dude! u knew ur making up stories.. confabulation in a psyche term.. hehehe.. gudluck!

  12. 12    Imelda August 24, 2006 at 8:32 am

    lalim mo, di ko ma dig dude

  13. 13    sandy August 24, 2006 at 5:32 pm

    grabe…..parang mkatotohanan!! muntk n tuloy me mtakot……

  14. 14    janielyn August 24, 2006 at 6:19 pm

    nice one… keep it up…

  15. 15    cecille August 24, 2006 at 7:00 pm

    nice and great!grabe na to”

  16. 16    roger August 24, 2006 at 11:27 pm

    nice story…gud job pare….

  17. 17    luz August 25, 2006 at 12:08 am

    ????????? ok kaaaaaaa, may kurot ka sa akin,,,,,

  18. 18    janine August 25, 2006 at 2:27 am

    its so eeeeeeeery……………!

  19. 19    aXIKU August 25, 2006 at 3:39 pm

    that was when the first cold wind of November blew from the west,,,,,i was a li’l nervous that night, walking alone in that long dark street without an indication of life but the moonlght which suggests peace

    ,,at first i thought it was just only my imagination when iv seen that image but with every step that I’m taking, it ’s getting more and more closer to me and so i cant get t out of my site,,,,

    ,,a conflict finally triggered inside me till it reached the point that i wanna run as fast as i cud……….and so I did.

    ,,as im passing that acacia tree with that adrenaline hype, again I saw an image,,,,I stopped…I take a look behind , and the first image had gone completely…..

    ,,,,then a voice touched my senses,,,,,,within that voice were meanings, but im finding it realy hard to understand……..each thoughts are something that i cant understand, but im sensing a meaning,,,

    a meaning of life, the beauty of being blind and what’s real peace……

    Truth,,,the truth that im searching,,, and so, I’m the hunted,,,,,,,,,,

    I cant look at it the same, within the reality of unnatural laws but no one can have this vision of me,,, and so I ran,,,,,,

    The third image finally appeared,,,,,,,,,

    Taking a figuration, a metamorphism through that moonlight around me,,,,,,,,

    I cant describe the image for it’s not for real,,, and that a memory will not do……..

    In spite of the impossibility of that image, finally I’ve seen the meaning,,,,,,,,,

    ,
    The Meaning Of The Third Image
    ECKJ07

    Within the Sound Of the Violin Is peace everyone is longing
    Within the unjustified thoughts lies a key of life-seeing
    Reading The Undefined Would be the best thing to do
    For there’s no limitation, no pressure for you

    I took a deep breath to calm my self and struggle to break the moonbeam thinking that the life of the image comes from it,,,,,,,,,,

    It was non sense,,, I wanna get out of that light but I cant,,,,

    The one I thought as peace was now haunting me,,,,,,,,,finally iv found my self crying,,,, how can I get out of this LIGHT?? What’s the way to break free??

    Those questions are the ones I wanna have first,,,,,,,,,

    Without knowing it, I was able to face my ceiling agen,,,,,,,,,with my lamp turned on…..

    But with the pain inside my heart!!!!!!

    galing mo pre!!!!!!!!!!

  20. 20    bombom August 25, 2006 at 7:48 pm

    kinda weird but intresting! hehe galing!

  21. 21    Princess August 25, 2006 at 9:01 pm

    :p :

  22. 22    YoongWei August 25, 2006 at 9:34 pm

    hey ur story is fascinating..
    and a lil bit spooky..
    is dat true?bt sumtime,i’ll believe it.

  23. 23    fricsfire August 26, 2006 at 2:59 am

    ha!!!!!!!!

  24. 24    manuel August 26, 2006 at 1:45 pm

    UR STORY GUYS SEEMS THE REFLECTION OF REAL YOU..ITS ADVANTGES CATER MORE READER IN REFLECTION FRONM THE RADERS

  25. 25    Whats August 26, 2006 at 8:45 pm

    no commen

  26. 26    maria mae August 26, 2006 at 9:23 pm

    hi..i saluted you as what you are..your great man..hoping that is true of what your saying..guluck

  27. 27    suhaina August 26, 2006 at 10:25 pm

    hush!!

  28. 28    sol rose August 26, 2006 at 10:31 pm

    hello

  29. 29    ellora August 26, 2006 at 11:03 pm

    what a good job!!! you are so creactive … salutedd

  30. 30    Hidayah August 26, 2006 at 11:18 pm

    i think it nice………… ;p keep it up!!!!!!!!!!! he6!

  31. 31    Excelsis August 26, 2006 at 11:18 pm

    you’re terrific!!!

  32. 32    Mhel August 27, 2006 at 12:00 am

    nice story . . ..

  33. 33    John MurieL August 27, 2006 at 12:09 am

    hey yeow mwn,,thts was a good,,why dnt u make a novel.

  34. 34    Rhoda Jelian August 27, 2006 at 1:05 am

    okei lng
    kaso prang bitin eh
    pro mgnda nman……
    c”,)

  35. 35    sUnDaY August 27, 2006 at 6:14 am

    really?????!!!!!

  36. 36    Sesa August 27, 2006 at 7:37 am

    Are you talkin’ about your boss ?

  37. 37    keith marvin August 27, 2006 at 6:14 pm

    hi hillo to all of you specially the person who will post thier comment .just start ur day with a smile and joy to achieve ur dream easily

  38. 38    sheila mae August 28, 2006 at 2:41 am

    OwWWs….so scary ha!!!hehe

  39. 39    jr August 28, 2006 at 4:29 am

    mga fren testy nmn jan

  40. 40    denise marie August 28, 2006 at 4:34 am

    ganda xa!!!!!!
    kaw lang gawa nito?

  41. 41    adit August 28, 2006 at 8:02 am

    what a nice story…
    can i copy that to my blog too???
    i’m impressed!!

  42. 42    rozz August 28, 2006 at 9:35 am

    scary

  43. 43    Romeo August 28, 2006 at 10:44 pm

    ANG POGI MO………..
    ALPHA KAPPA RHO………..

  44. 44    Romeo August 28, 2006 at 10:47 pm

    ANG POGI MO………..
    ALPHA KAPPA RHO………..
    SKEPYRON ASTIG……….

    E2 EMAIL AD KO….
    EMAIL KAYO SKEN,,,…..
    (Mheo_03@yahoo.com

  45. 45    ruby August 29, 2006 at 1:46 am

    hello.just wanna have some friends on line.maybe you’d like to be one of mine

  46. 46    paula August 29, 2006 at 2:23 am

    ang pangit mo

  47. 47    rcroycetorocks August 29, 2006 at 3:49 am

    hi parts muztah naaaaaaaaaaaaa…………

  48. 48    princess August 29, 2006 at 9:22 am

    great story.. =)

  49. 49    louie August 29, 2006 at 6:06 pm

    it happened to me its true

  50. 50    bek August 29, 2006 at 6:20 pm

    no commen. haha

  51. 51    marie angeline August 29, 2006 at 9:30 pm

    WAW,RADA g mudeng si tp ok kok…kak be my new friends on friendster y, i have no prend ni masi kosong gt….

  52. 52    Patrick August 29, 2006 at 11:04 pm

    nice story.. that was cool!

  53. 53    Mohd Hilton August 29, 2006 at 11:52 pm

    woahhh

    speechless dude!

  54. 54    Lani August 30, 2006 at 12:32 am

    well.. he is kinda gud pero there are parts where in wrong iyang grammar pero to all-in-all, well dude, you impressed a professional writer! keep it up!

  55. 55    Maria Teresa August 30, 2006 at 1:13 am

    r u sum kinda writer?
    but anyway u impressed me!!!

  56. 56    nisa August 30, 2006 at 2:34 am

    halo

  57. 57    mhelyn August 30, 2006 at 1:27 pm

    wowwwwww!!ngeniiiig ako doon ah!ang galing ng horror story mo.takkot ako konti lang parang true…….hehehe

  58. 58    isabelo August 30, 2006 at 1:32 pm

    am afraid dude he he he

  59. 59    PeeBoi August 30, 2006 at 6:29 pm

    view mine hehehe! im scared

  60. 60    Fathe August 30, 2006 at 8:24 pm

    hi just wanna be your friends

  61. 61    Keevin August 30, 2006 at 10:24 pm

    Hi hI Hi

  62. 62    muhammad August 30, 2006 at 10:45 pm

    ha..ha..hi..hi… dah kayak kuntilanak lw peler!!!!!

  63. 63    air August 31, 2006 at 2:01 am

    nice one,its kinda spooky…

  64. 64    skiescrapper August 31, 2006 at 2:30 am

    heheh

  65. 65    roy August 31, 2006 at 2:56 am

    ghost short yes;roy

  66. 66    shivice August 31, 2006 at 8:10 am

    oh my BRAVO!!!!!!!! aztig pre ang galing ng pagkakagawa nakaka takut!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~

  67. 67    Evelina August 31, 2006 at 9:37 am

    nicely told… good work…

  68. 68    jed September 1, 2006 at 12:12 am

    thats fun!i felt that im in the story…very good…ill try to catch other stories of yours later!i was facinated…goodluck

  69. 69    Mary Jane September 1, 2006 at 12:14 am

    Im letting myself to be in yourself, im a coward girl in terms of darkness but slight i felt scared..nice story!!good work..

  70. 70    kat September 1, 2006 at 12:43 am

    interesting but eerie… i like it! keep up the good work!

  71. 71    Luisito September 1, 2006 at 1:01 am

    i think its kinda….deep but impressing…gudluck…

  72. 72    Cess September 1, 2006 at 2:07 am

    somethin’ to think deeply what’s next…my pores in cold and my mind’s in boggle..i don’t think if my thoughts are right about who accompanied you…

  73. 73    gernel September 1, 2006 at 7:20 am

    nc blog…

  74. 74    S h A r O N September 1, 2006 at 12:51 pm

    malufet!!! kakatakot!!!

  75. 75    tRiPperz September 1, 2006 at 10:10 pm

    aHHk!ez,,,,kk xAh,,,

  76. 76    cris September 1, 2006 at 10:42 pm

    i love poems… i made poems but i dont want to put in blog or put in public,. but u know guys,. a poetry is mystery,and still remain a person who loves to write is called poetry,.they are having secret within them, a secret that never hide, so u better know it,. they are the person who loves to be alone… i am loner person too..love to write poems..

  77. 77    Paolo September 2, 2006 at 1:20 am

    Creepy. Awesome but creepy… nice work…

  78. 78    ali September 2, 2006 at 3:46 am

    ah! ok?! ok lang, nkakatuwa! waaaaaaaaahahahaha… korni

  79. 79    dexter September 2, 2006 at 4:03 am

    fuck u k

  80. 80    Glenn September 2, 2006 at 12:17 pm

    i support u man.

  81. 81    Jessie September 3, 2006 at 1:31 am

    nice photo

  82. 82    -SuZAnnAH- September 3, 2006 at 5:58 am

    WAH U IMPRESSD ME!!!!! SPOOOOOOKYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

  83. 83    mat dhuan September 3, 2006 at 8:31 pm

    wooohhh ebrybodi…. im alone in da dark ma

  84. 84    Aisyah September 4, 2006 at 3:13 am

    yuhuuu….hi friends….im alone now….

  85. 85    mei September 4, 2006 at 3:27 am

    Hi there dude u know i like ur story. but its better that u use some easy words. para nmn ma gets nmin ng husto……but u know i’de like to experince that scaring momments….can u help me….im not kidding u know..

  86. 86    Cowboy September 4, 2006 at 3:40 am

    yo…great story dude!!!

  87. 87    aui September 4, 2006 at 4:03 am

    and then …. what?

  88. 88    jenny September 4, 2006 at 4:52 am

    can u be my frnd?be good…i am a gud frnd!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  89. 89    luz September 4, 2006 at 7:27 am

    ?

  90. 90    preety September 4, 2006 at 8:30 am

    kala ko nmn kung anu na!!
    dre aus ka……
    aylabyu na!wahhaha!!!!!!!

  91. 91    aRieSa September 4, 2006 at 5:39 pm

    u’r a sort of having split personality pare.. joke!

  92. 92    shanee September 4, 2006 at 10:00 pm

    hey i like it

  93. 93    Joe Mean September 4, 2006 at 11:33 pm

    a very deep meaning. I’m impressed. Keep writing and you’ll succeed 1 day as a novelist

  94. 94    Dingdong September 5, 2006 at 1:40 am

    You write good (with few grammatical errors which are fine since those could be corrected).

    But there’s more to your writing than meets the eye. I can make out, or, to put it safely, you either want to be a writer someday or you are a person who is unhappy inside and use writing as a creative outlet. I bet you are an artist, a budding poet or someone creative.

    Looking for the meaning of life, hints of sadness and talks of the devil are the ingredients that sum up an unhappy state.

    If you think what I’m saying here is right, let me know.

    If I’m wrong and you just want to be writer and unhappiness has nothing to do with your writing style, just ignore this then :)

  95. 95    Jovie September 5, 2006 at 1:56 am

    Nice!!

  96. 96    xiao-mei September 5, 2006 at 2:19 am

    hey are you feeling that too,i feel it too like something is whispering into your head then i can move thing by my mind!!

  97. 97    Ramil September 5, 2006 at 2:44 am

    wowaweeeeeeee pwede na, just
    more practice dude…………..

  98. 98    redrose September 5, 2006 at 5:43 pm

    allo…

  99. 99    ' Carmee ' September 5, 2006 at 6:43 pm

    Hey dude :) Nice work you got there. But I have to admit, you’ve got to improve on the grammar and spelling.

    Anyroad, keep writing. The story’s good.

  100. 100    IRISH KRISTINE September 5, 2006 at 7:24 pm

    r u reaLLy d 1 who did dis kind of storY???s ur hobbY to wroTe a stoRy?????4 me 8z was 1 of d ncE storY,,dat i had been read…cn u send me mor story at my emaiL add., irishKristine_08@yahoo.com or bettr tx me at 09207213909..iL rather w8 it..tnx…

  101. 101    angsty princess September 5, 2006 at 11:10 pm

    i agree with mystery. improve the grammar thing and ur on ur way up! hu knows, i might hav ur books on my shelves one of these days….

  102. 102    chisel September 6, 2006 at 2:24 am

    shalom aliechem!
    convince me!!!!!!!!!! quite impressive.
    see my publisher…………

  103. 103    jeorge September 6, 2006 at 7:31 am

    Its quite impressive…
    but its really wierd…

  104. 104    Lalaine September 6, 2006 at 5:57 pm

    Sound’s scary…Dude!

  105. 105    Mustica Anggun September 6, 2006 at 7:43 pm

    yes

  106. 106    lovely amor September 6, 2006 at 9:18 pm

    do take care….halooo!

  107. 107    sOuL aSsasiN September 6, 2006 at 10:18 pm

    weird…………

  108. 108    rusz September 6, 2006 at 11:08 pm

    your such a good writer man!!! i hope we could be friend!! coz youre inspiring me alot. good lock and keep writing for good,..=)

  109. 109    liezel September 6, 2006 at 11:46 pm

    grabe very scare ako!convine lahat ng gnwa mo

  110. 110    JHUN September 7, 2006 at 12:40 am

    good story pare!!!!!!!!
    looking forward for another story!!!!!!! heheheheh!!!
    just add me heheheheh!!!!!!!!

  111. 111    Marian September 7, 2006 at 4:04 am

    wow!!!im realy amaze wid u!!!!!!!!!hwew!!!!!!

  112. 112    alma September 7, 2006 at 11:20 pm

    ang galing mo ‘tol…hehehe
    i’m scared of dat kinda feeling…..

  113. 113    josel grace September 7, 2006 at 11:52 pm

    Ei….TAHUM!! nice interpetation of yourself… TRY to find the REAL YOU Okie??? God bless u…:)

  114. 114    rochelle September 8, 2006 at 1:46 am

    are you a writer or just it came from your true experience? im amaze!

  115. 115    arms September 8, 2006 at 1:49 am

    well i only like to say ……….that’s great idea

  116. 116    INT September 8, 2006 at 6:04 am

    HUh!!!! What’s that???? Hehehe……

  117. 117    mariztel September 8, 2006 at 5:34 pm

    ay ewan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  118. 118    mariztel September 8, 2006 at 5:36 pm

    grabe!!!!!!!!!!!ano ba yun ang pangit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  119. 119    Maybelle September 8, 2006 at 7:53 pm

    ang pangit mo!!!!!! sinasapian!!!!!! hahahahahahahahahahahah!!!!!!

  120. 120    Gamesh September 8, 2006 at 9:23 pm

    Grammar glitches aside, I think it was a pretty ‘cool’ post.

  121. 121    Jonbuggerwott September 8, 2006 at 10:58 pm

    ummm wow…ur sort of inspiring and the thing is i dont know ,…u…weirdly crazy

  122. 122    Dondi September 8, 2006 at 11:23 pm

    huh. hmmmm…
    u reminds me of the japanese kid who poisons his classmates.

    truly…too little knowhow is dangerous…bettertryagain..

  123. 123    proz September 9, 2006 at 3:08 am

    …..nothing to ask more..

  124. 124    camille September 9, 2006 at 5:54 am

    hehehe………. la lng galing!!

  125. 125    choirul September 9, 2006 at 7:03 am

    hello brain….
    i’m rRey..
    your mask is very good..

  126. 126    JAY September 9, 2006 at 9:09 am

    Great and magnificent.

  127. 127    faridzul September 9, 2006 at 9:49 pm

    fantastic story

  128. 128    jayson September 9, 2006 at 10:28 pm

    oh! my god that was so scary story it is amazing to read your story

  129. 129    laura joy September 10, 2006 at 1:05 am

    wierd and creepy…devilish

  130. 130    joseph September 10, 2006 at 5:17 am

    that was awesome..!! its really scarry yet realistic one.., i rememberd when i saw a movie FENG SUI…
    GREAT!!!!

  131. 131    jessa rhose September 10, 2006 at 5:28 am

    charoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooootttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  132. 132    lara franz September 10, 2006 at 5:41 am

    oh my god!!

    u`re really great man!!

    really scarrrrryyyy!!!!!!

    and i love it!!!!

  133. 133    sheila dimple September 10, 2006 at 5:46 am

    yeah!!!!!!!!grabe kktakot d me 2loy mk2log sa gbi pero ok lng ang pogi mo nmn sa pic.add mo ko this is my emailadd add mo ko shekhina_mae@yahoo.com.ph

  134. 134    nheziemel September 10, 2006 at 6:07 pm

    well………….
    8s scary………….
    i luv it………….
    ahehe………
    cn u b my friend?

  135. 135    yeolo September 10, 2006 at 9:34 pm

    gago ka delete koang frienster

  136. 136    bronson September 10, 2006 at 11:57 pm

    yaiks!

  137. 137    Andrew September 11, 2006 at 2:27 am

    I think that was me

  138. 138    jackieline September 11, 2006 at 2:36 am

    no comment

  139. 139    edward September 11, 2006 at 2:41 am

    bragged

  140. 140    IAN September 11, 2006 at 9:29 am

    bay! ongo….

  141. 141    aida September 11, 2006 at 7:42 pm

    hi!po gud am po,thanks for info.send po uli kau.

  142. 142    Assi September 12, 2006 at 12:22 am

    Ur stories haunt me. It’s everybody’s reflection. As if we see our scary faces in front of the mirror; a face we’d always resist to gaze at… Hope ur feelin better now… :)

  143. 143    Angelie September 12, 2006 at 2:01 am

    Grabe!!!!…..speechless ako nung mabasa ko yung story mo….ikaw ba talaga ang sumulat nito????write more coz i know you’ll make it….

  144. 144    shemy September 12, 2006 at 3:00 am

    i think your a good writer………………. from shemy scarborough,ontario,canada

  145. 145    faizal September 12, 2006 at 6:05 am

    ere

  146. 146    ArieL September 12, 2006 at 9:49 am
  147. 147    eli September 17, 2006 at 9:35 am

    ohhhhlalaaaaaa

  148. 148    Van September 19, 2006 at 7:25 pm

    i think its good…
    i think a new J.K. rowling is born…

  149. 149    Diyoga September 24, 2006 at 12:02 am

    w…o….o…w

  150. 150    hane October 23, 2006 at 12:26 am

    dark and disturbingly beautiful….seems that you dealing with your own devil. nway, hello! just stopping by here! i like this piece of yours. why don’t you wirte the whole story together? i’m sure it’ll be interesting.

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