05
Aug
06

The Devil Wear Halo Too

Bleed_1It’s like you finally found your god, but he just walk away from you.

after one solid month, everything ruined because of one single sms i found in the "sent items" in your mobile phone

folder. the same line, the same i love you’s, but this one for somebody

else. i don’t ask how? but why.

why did u risk our love, my love, for someone’s not worthed??? 

Je suis désolé - Lo siento - Ik ben droevig - het spijt me - Sono

spiacente - Perdóname - i am sorry….they’re all the same. suddenly all

repeating inside my head.

how would u feel when u finally found that love in ur

2nd chance and u get tricked twice!!! WHAT A STUPID DUDE I AM!!!!

last nite was wonderful as it could be. those sweet words you said

to me was all bullshit afterall. but how dare u swear in the name of

Christ u never play me and deceive me but lok what u did! i stop seeing

someone else, i stop my old habbit u doesn’t like, i adjust my life for

you, but what i get in return? nothing but pain.

so much for the sweet words and affection in ur phone calls. i shouldn’t

believe if it’s bitter at the start then it’s sweeter in the end. no,

it’s GETTING BITTER in the end.

I’m packing my stuff from our place and move back with my folks. that’s

it. i’m not angry or sad. i’m too numb for this kind of situation. my

heart still adjust for the misery i’ve been trough before. but the wound

bleed again in ur hand.

i’m just too in love with you to hate you.

all i need is mind erasing program, like jhony mnemonic had. i just want to

restart myself. to the time where there was before you.

We have things between us
So many walls, a crash of silence
And these ropes, once they were untied
Would be worth
The pieces of a broken love
If I could
I would turn back time

To become again
The one who has wings
Right before you…Juste avant toi.




19 Responses to “The Devil Wear Halo Too”


  1. 1    PurryPurryPurry August 5, 2006 at 10:19 am

    Sedih banged…
    I’m sorry for you, cause I did the same thing like your girlfriend did to you, a couple of times. But I promise myself I’ll never do that again. Not to whoever I’ll end up with. Not to myself. Cause the pain works in both ways.
    Kalo kata Nyokap gwe : “takkan lari gunung dikejar… kalo jodoh ga akan kmana2″.
    It won’t be easy, but you’ll get over it, as soon as you learn much, that it’s really over.

    http://catmuslimah.blogs.friendster.com/purry_the_cat_muslimah/

  2. 2    ann August 5, 2006 at 6:24 pm

    Oh, i felt sad reading your story. But i know you’ll get over it. It’s hard coz i’ve been in that situation before (i caught my BF fooling around). Bear in mind that everything happens for a reason. So cheer up! There’s a lot more instore for you.:)

  3. 3    Johanna August 5, 2006 at 7:15 pm

    Hey there..FYI, Im one of those ppl that always look forward to read ur blog..its nice..and it has touched my heart everytime i read it…just want to let u know..i understand how u feel, as i’ve felt the same way..but keep strong and believe..when you dun get what you want, just sit still and be happy (i know its sooo damn hard!!), becoz GOD is preparing something much better for you…take care..

  4. 4    -nazrie- August 6, 2006 at 6:30 am

    hello..
    enjoy reading ur blog..

  5. 5    Johanna Bille August 6, 2006 at 1:22 pm

    i feel exactly the same.. same scenario same everything.. ders always karma. everything will be fine soon..

  6. 6    ibet August 7, 2006 at 4:10 am

    Well, as the nick name “BETTER”…. get better soon… don’t be buried in the depth of numb….
    Let’s face it!
    In a week , you will write things better as ur name, be better and keep thougher…
    hehehehehe… ada yang salahhhh yaaaaaa..

    I ever experienced that….
    The world keeps moving anyway…
    n….
    I keep jomblo then….
    hahahahaha

  7. 7    Jet August 7, 2006 at 5:00 am

    the numbness u felt, is what i feel now as i read ur blog..the wound has bleed again…as if the blood that clotted from it was scratched…

    love is one of the most abused word today. people often speak of love…………when all they mean is nothing but lust…

    bud, pick up ur broken pieces share me in my journey of making myself whole again…

  8. 8    -PiscaniliE- August 8, 2006 at 11:58 pm

    “i’m just too in love with you to hate you” … oh iknow that situation indeed!!… en from comments that i’ve read, i think many of them had been in the same situation with you (me include)..en reading ur blog .. makes me feel insecure .. coz my BF doesnt allow me to check his self phone ..

  9. 9    -PiscaniliE- August 8, 2006 at 11:59 pm

    “i’m just too in love with you to hate you” … oh iknow that situation indeed!!… en from comments that i’ve read, i think many of them had been in the same situation with you (me include)..en reading ur blog .. makes me feel insecure .. coz my BF doesnt allow me to check his self phone ..

  10. 10    Assi August 9, 2006 at 6:02 am

    It’s been a while. I haven’t known you’d changed the background of your blog, it’s a whole new world in my eyes. Before, I use to see your blog like a person with different color of emotions, yet still pure in heart, as white as it is. But now, the color made it soooo sad. I understand. Was it the barcode of your heart that you are pertaining to this story? Get up, man, life is tough so let’s face it toughly as well.

  11. 11    HATREDEMONZ August 9, 2006 at 9:34 am

    I kwow wad how u feel

    also enjoy ur blogs

    I felt pain N misery..

    be4 which no 1 rally understands..

    -just a kid

  12. 12    Iva August 11, 2006 at 9:08 pm

    Piscanilie, careful wit ur boy cuz he might flirt as Better’s gal did.
    I’m sorry to hear tat, Betta, but keep in faith tat there’ll be a loyal woman waiting 4 u somewhere in tis world. GBU.

  13. 13    izakusha August 12, 2006 at 8:31 am

    hey, betta( they reall call u that?) U are frustated i know–but dont let anger gets the best of you. Maybe after a quiet moment of mourning, u can listen to her explanation, she swore she didnt play, maybe there’s just something logical behind it after all, something u both cudnt resolve until u sit down, being vulnerable– and talk. who knows, it mite all b just a misundestanding, i hope it is. bcoz, love like that dont go away wit hatred in heart,,it mite even grow stronger bcoz of it. Even if it’s true that she was playing, at least give her a space for her sayings. that’s the commemoration of your love that u cud give her. peace betta.

  14. 14    jOey'aLive August 12, 2006 at 9:32 pm

    I was just thinking the thoughts u have been thinking.Hope i can restart my life again before he entered my life. u wrote down ur emotions so beautifully that someone from far can feel ur heartbreak.
    But believe me, there will be blessings behind all these..

  15. 15    jing August 13, 2006 at 5:27 am

    0h better, reading ur blogs makes me feel sad, depress, blue, lonely..i feel what u felt. i sympathize and maybe we could sit and cry together :)

  16. 16    TeFRaN August 13, 2006 at 7:55 pm

    Just wanna say my deepest symphaty for you…You deserve the best…and he ain’t gonna be your best…there’s so many hotties out there…so please…come back soon in the SINGLE MARKET!!

  17. 17    Agnes August 14, 2006 at 12:57 am

    im one of those who looked forward to reading ur blogs, because it just touched me everytime….

    i felt ur pain, i’ve been fooled before too…but don’t worry, you will get over it! try to look around you, there are just so many important things in your life than this person who caused you so much pain.

    take it on the positive! take it as a blessing that you know her true colors earlier…it gives u the chance to meet someone better, someone who will love you even more…

    so, cheer up!

  18. 18    psych August 17, 2006 at 2:21 pm

    hola… i came 2 urs by accident but stil chose 2 read on. ur truths brot chills down my spine mate. so reeeal yet wish it was all a dream 4u. i’ve read on.. most wud say, da toughest of life is 2 accept da truths. but 2 me (who’d been crashed b4), da toughest is to honestly question yaself whr, wen & wil u eva pick up da balance pieces enuf 2 cal it “move on”. and i’ve survived, far frm my womaniser ex-fiance! im tellin ya, hw glad i am 2day dat THE word (most wud abuse..2nd chance)…is mine to keep now. cheers, u’ll live mate c”,)

  19. 19    soLiTaiRe August 23, 2006 at 2:48 am

    u gotta move on, man!!!
    life’s too short…
    wish i cud say dat to myself.. *sigh*

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