it’s me again. i’m grateful for another chance, to bring to you. to you again. nice stories of
life another phase. reasons why i live. many things occured when i neglect myself. work is
the sea i’m swimming in these couple of weeks. so many things, so little time.
susan, my boss is leaving to malaysia for her holiday. i really know that she misses her
hometown. it’s been sometimes since she hadn’t come home. the office is quiet these couple
o’days. as my friends got their day off, mine is just a day coming. reports and duties i have
to finish are settled. so does my heart.
i found another timing where i could actually see myself with somebody new. a new chapter,
a beautiful beginning with risks i have to face. but this time is different. in my past
relationship i used to think about me, my joy, my time of happiness. but no. not this one. we
found each other in a way where we don’t even know where we put ourselves in. but fate
brought us into moments where we could appreciate each other. that’s where affection takes part.
i know that my heart was broken to pieces many times. where i had to pick up what’s left in disapointment. but i learned from every chapter i’m in. thanks to you guys, where in advises of yours i could get my strength and wisdom. this time is not about me anymore. it’s about healing another heart’s that’s been broken too. i know why i’m here, why i’m brought
in another person’s life. i might be burning and melt down, but at least my light could shine so other people could see their way in the dark.
the funny thing was we had the same spot of childhood scar on our body. some of our experience were almost the same and the scary part was we even had the same song in our heads without we don’t even tell each other. finally found someone. it’s a sin when i’m falling, a tragedy when i’m in love. but i swallow both. it’s nice and easy when i have this experience. directions we’re heading in are the same and i hope this is it. the last chapter in my book as i’m tired of another search, another part of my mirror.
things have been change as i didn’t notice. my neighbor renovating his house, steve irwin’s
died in a stingray’s tail attack, it’s been years since 9/11 tragedy occured. i notice in the
bus as i go to work this morning, people have their own world to be happy in. an old man
with different ear size wearing a black cap. a lady starring out of the bus window thinking
what today’s going to be for her. a kid sleeping in her mother’s lap and a man singing for
quarters but he’s happy i can tell by his face. a fly on the window and a plastic swung by the air flown inside this vehicle.
life brought me into this stage of settlement and releasing. i still have fights to win
between myself, but not as hard as it was. i learn so many i could share to every man in
China. this new relationship doesn’t make me a different person from yesterday. just an
added value in my strings of believeness of attachments. i still looking outside the view of
my bus and thought of myself. where life taking me to? how dare am i to face the next
station? with whom i’m going to walk with? those questions doesn’t scare me no more. i have
God, lotsa friends and effort to put me through another stage in this post-mo lifestyle.
morsecoding signals they pulsate and wake me up from my hibernate.
i love him, yes i love him and this time i’m gonna keep me all to myself…
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