in every living things they depend to others. as we’re in that circle too. i learn to trust again and it’s hard. i have this love that kept pouring from inside and i don’t have any more bowls to hold it in. but somehow my anti-feeling just began to force with the soft part of myself. i cannot resist the feeling of care to somebody else. somebody that just walk into my door mat and stand infront of my heart door.
he makes my world grew another sunshine. a war with the winter that has been settling inside of me all along. how can we heal from that pain after all those time? tell me if any of you have the answers. i got nowhere to go beside me and what i believes in. and this whole situation just put me to a place i never been before.
i want to feel love again but i’m still trying. and trying is hard enough, now i have to believe. my lackness of emotion just put me where i don’t want to be. my mouth are wide open but none of them words are coming out to explain. if only he can read my mind, my heart beat in a race i can never stop. have you ever been to a place where dreams are real and real are dreaming? which way are you looking now? from inside the mirror or beyond border of the through looking glass?
is it my fate i never feel peace again. many questions have pop out of my stupid little head. people telling me what to do, when and where. do they know that my heart are already bleeding and nothing could stop the gushing but slowing it down. yes, we can only slowing it down.
i’m walking beneath the half moonlight from my escaping world of work. i see the shadows of my footpath and no one else. how can i accept this tender that begun seeping in and caresing me inside out? i have lost something we could never found. me and myself are discussing it right now. how crazy are we that we could be in a stage of a new relationship. i choose to open this door of mine to another adventure that i doesn’t even know where i’m taking myself.
i’m still stuck with ade, she’s having this relationship with someone i can’t even trust with. he seemed nice and normal but over reacted. dude, i’m NOT trying to take your queen away from your kingdom. i just want her to be happy. don’t spoil the milk like i did coz she’s one box you’d never find elsewhere. i know what it feels like to be in love, i am now. but i’m just learning to trust again.
i always think humans are the main issues of this unstable life’s story. episodes of wrecked yet beautiful in their own time. i really love him and never want to repeat the same scene of loosing as i have experienced in my past. i learn to forgive i learn to let go. i learn denial, fear, bargaining, and finally accepting. i just want me and myself -us- to be happy. as what every breathing creatures want. either in darkness or in the light.
we’re racing with the time here. where the focus of that goal is an answer we already knew from the begining. infact, we are the teacher of our own culture aren’t we? i miss my time of peace, like right now i’m writting this non-sense. when my fingers stroking the keyboard is a melody and ryhtm of tonight. stories kept on moving and i can’t even remember. it’s there in my head and i always feels it but i cannot keep it.
paul are remain the same crazy dude i always know. smoking dozens of marlboro while he’s doing his film projects. roni are accross the sea with his chick thinking what are they’re going to do for their upcoming near future. dyan and her little princess is at perth, struggling for a place to call home. sintya still banging her head thinking how to get a guy and happily ever after. riga is having family problems with my aunties about family wealth stuff, don’t give a fuck. tika is getting ready for her next album after a huge hits with her frozen love songs. ucha maybe sleeping with his mouth open rite now in his warm bed getting ready to work again tomorrow. while lisa is madly in love with his ricky, the sailorman, haha. modja just finish her graduation test few days ago. beben’s birthday are two days ago exactly, he didn’t reply to my happy birthday message. wilmar younger sister is getting ready to leave her family for her college in sumatra. susan and kany, my bosses are in singapore rite now having training from co’s regional president. botaq’s are calling me these few days asking whether he could come this saturday, and i haven’t give my answer yet. merry is having her hard time adjusting her new work station, but i think she’s accepting it quite well. and debby’s grandmother just going over an operation, dunno what, just wishing her well. didi are looking a bit gloomy these few days, well..these few months. vicka are requesting ACIL for a monday discount at the movies.
and me……? i’m just learning to trust again.
and you call that selfish??
oh my…what anice body and article you have sir…..
ha!
i do have to agree with messay nice article
your bad ha !!1
i can’t agree more to your atricle. trust is a something that we are lacking this days and coming weaker in our future society.
8s k. hehehehehehehe nice messages
naks>>>>>>>>
8s nice at least u give a lesson 2 us…….hehehehe be practical ds tym……..toink.
don’t be happy
interesting article if i have time to read,u can be novel writer, keep it up, dude, GOD bless you.
keep on learning dude!
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take it easy dude… enjoy life… but try to trust again..
i was touched by your story… its really hard to trust and find some peace.hehe pls add me… arjay_2916@yahoo.com
Your body is a woman or man…? Because i not see your face !!!!
nice to meet you.
i like the the way u pose. u shud try it again. its an art thing.
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wow!!!!!
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THANK YOU!!!!
nakakatwa naman!!!!hahahahaha iba naman!!!!nice pict huh!!!hahahah
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i’m not sure this picture male or female. it’s so pretty
yeah,u shud’ve learn to trust again.It’s not being selfish anyway.Your just trying to procure things up just to keep your feet on the ground. In whichever way u choose to stick with,learn to be happy. God Bless You!
i dont see any problem if you continue to trust and learn the consequences in life.you move on and always keep your trust and respect.
dont do nude in friendster but you do nude in my house
i shud say we basically share the same sentiments. trust is definitely a BIG word for me ryt now.. the most abused word so far.. its meaning is drowned with all those petty kisses and iluvu’s!! sorry but that word never fails to fuck my day..
Good tried and don’t be a LIAR.
nice butt… walang kamot!
FLAWLESS!!!!! YAN LANG!!!!!!! PANO BA MAG POST????????????
ano ba yan?para namang nasa ano ka nyan?^_^
hahhahahhahhahhahahha
shit….. your butt is so cute…
hmmm… I dunno… maybe it’s selfish maybe it’s not..
~Jus a Kid
pada ngapain c luh
hahaha! it’s funny though to think…. hmmm well you have shared to us a good lesson to learn!
nice butt…
can i lick it????
Hot body..lolx..nice…damn nice..
i love your butt
Nkas…Bastos mo..!!1but infernis flawless rin..
……..panget….
nq eh 22 yan loko!!! ali moH????
kamuritan muh yan!!!!
hay lhanz!!! body mzta nka???
pakita mo pet mo!!!!!
pakita dw ba pet nya…prrrrrrut!!!!
kunaon gambarna gak seluruh nya bugil. padahal aku suka kalo km bugil……….
keep on trusting,a better person is waiting you ahead of your journey.
But to display your body her is not a good idea..
nakz pre.. sarap tirahin yan ah!!…jokz!!
para kang uutot!
lalake o babae bakla hula koh yack
gwapo ko
harap sa likod>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> harap!
nice pic it passed cencorship. nice column and ideas ill wait for your next episide.thank you for sharing your thoughts and real experience. i hope that ill be like you in exposing your self. youre a brave creation.
jubo besar…
turn to the right and wow?
muka syang ggo pro ok
not bad dude…gays like that much hahahahaha keep it up…
makeng jer dibuatnya, kalom nak konal,silo kan, kito sudi berkawie
hi……….add me as ur frennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
mende r…
hahahahahaha…..bapok ka????tangkp gmbr dlm gelap boleh r…ce r kt tmpt terang,gerenti nmpk kurap/sopak..
actually the most interesting in u is that the pic itself means u are…i am touched when i read it…i see myself while im reading it! your not alone but ive learned many things from what i have read more power and be strong always as “habang may buhay may pag asa”
jubo beso brg kecik wat per..?
so nice who are you.ho2..
hmmmmmmmmmm……not bad !
not bad !
l love my self bgt.
so don’t make me to be naughty boy again for twice oakleay fuck’in brotha???
l love my self bwanget
ilove u..i like you too hope we met someday..take gud care…
Man, your picture has cost you your account. I know some people consider it an art, but some people will also consider it offensive. Anywayz, Can you tell me how to put images and html codes on the blogs?
Holla back,
be with urself..goodluck
trip na trip ang dating mo……..
nice butt..este article pla..heheheh
hey wake up, there still many beautiful things in this helpless world. Just don’t close Ur self to the world, let it flow man! You’ll never know what world could give to you. Just open up and let the sun shine in…
nice pic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
===== I apologize for people who find my previous pic was offensive. I have withdraw that picture and replace it with more appropriate image ======
BUT i pity for you -you useless selfish prey- out there who have boxed in yourself in a world of uncreative and black & white mind (few days of VICTORY for my butt!!!!)
nice body……hehehehhehehe
Be my friend nalang..
babae kb or lalaki,, di clear eh…
i like your style, u’r so sexy….
i like your style, u’r so sexy….but i dont know u’r face
oh my!!!!!!!! what a story! but dats true sir, its hard to trust someone again when many things happend to us that is not good. But always remember, we get stronger when we experience problems. i want to be your friend,heres my email: nature_lhay@yahoo.com
live must gone…take it easy man…this not the end of the world. i have same cease with u but i still live. ok …
hay!kuya buhay pa ba ung nag gupit sau,ang kinis ng ulo mo ha!e ung ulo moh,sa baba kalbo rn ba!joke only!!!!!!!pls add me! shekhina_mae@yahoo.com.ph ok!tnx love u mwahhhhhhhh!!!
its is good to have a trust to anyone but its not easy to do that its not being a selffish person but you much know how to trust again…… your article is so very nice its better luck next time hehehe cute your nipple hehehehehe……..
can you pls add me in your friends list thnx Salamanca_michelle@yahoo.com
i like the way you explain ur story, so touch ..
by the way, life is to learn to be better person, day by day..if u have opportunity to have that experience in ur life, u must grateful, dat u have something to learn fr that lesson..and when u share yr story to us, u give us lesson to think and to learn..thank u!
u are not alone dude..i was also like that before as in just the way you think..but then i realized we all have the CHOICE how we will be,ryt?its hard for you to trust again coz it is still sinking in your mind that it will happen again the negative past that you’ve been through….
hai
its ok from me
after all that happened to me.. i know that TRUST is really impoRtant paLa.. it’s hard to tRust again,, & it’s good to be pRactical.. maybe,, if the first one bRoKe your TRUST, the second one can do it also.. but think about this,, it’s really unfair to the “second one” cuz he’s not the “first” & he’s different from him.. it’s hard to TRUST, but you should especially to someone you really love..
how deep.. nice one! Enjoy life! god’s speed…
nice article…!! you’re not alone dude..and life has to go on, no matter what…anyway thanks for a good reading piece..
i read somewhere… sometimes you cannot believe what you see, but you just have to trust what you feel. but how can you trust yourself, when you haven’t had the courage to forgive yourself
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nice article impressive…..
dont let your feelings stay with you now.that is just a feelings.
ganada mu
pangit
make up your mind. It seems you have 2 pesonalities i can’t see you as you anymore. You clouded me as those thoughts of yours instantly coming out of your head. Deep in emotions but too foggy to see. Iam just a girl happen to read your thoughts and makes me realized that i should start trying………….
make up your mind. It seems you have 2 pesonalities i can’t see you as you anymore. You clouded me as those thoughts of yours instantly coming out of your head. Deep in emotions but too foggy to see. Iam just a girl happen to read your thoughts and makes me realized that i should start trying………….
gambarna keren juga…hehe
huh!
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well i have no say!! best way is Don’t trust anyone!! will only get hurt.but u can trust me.
TRUST….? what is that ? many failure happen and caused by the act of betraying from other people around us even from the closest people whom we thought would never ever do that. but still it keep happening….in business, in relationship and in every aspect of our life. But keep the hope shining…never give up in trusting again, just watch the percentage…hehehe…you’re the one who can determine how much you want to trust anybody you’re facing with. take a baby step….1 %..then 10 %….up to u…
mann .. what a .. apa yaha ..
bagus .. bgt ..
salut .. ekspresif ..