I just got back from business
trip to Medan, myself and 2 other work mates
held an expo in Hotel Novotel Medan –North Sumatra.
It was a one day thingy, flew there in the morning and back again in the
evening. Quite exhausting but I’m quite refreshed with at least changing
environment beside my usual working place. We had a turbulence a few times and I
wasn’t worry, but Nia (one of my friend) she’s pregnant and so freaking afraid,
she was crying when it was happened. All the newspaper in the plane headlines
was exposing about Adam Air accident (like yea, that’s so helping her with her
trauma).
Anyhoo, from the airport I go to
my friend’s place to spend a night there like I promised him a few days before.
He lived with his boyfriend, a perfect couple for almost 10 years. His house
was something! not so big but comfy and it feels like home. He stylishly arranges his interior to
match and makes the room much bigger, love it there. He invites a friend of his
to join us and we talked for hours until it was almost 3am. I was so tired and
sleepy but I just can’t get enough hearing all of their stories. They are much
older than me, but somehow we have something in common especially talking about
music. He got so many great books (even though I don’t spend that much time
reading), DVDs, magz also photos from his friends and life journey.
I met him not long ago, starting
off from a simple message via internet and suddenly we talked like we know each other long before we met. He’s very wise and open, I adore how his mind process things and
makes a perfect integration when it comes out as sentences. I like to get
advises from people, I appreciate life’s in balancing how my mind actually
works. I remembered Baz in one of his lyrics: “Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply
it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past
from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it
for more than it’s worth.”
I start to take a look at myself.
I’m forcing myself to be happy with working over-time, but I didn’t get what I
want. What I need is someone I could share my life with. That person doesn’t
have to be understanding with all the bullshit follow after, what I need is just trust and endless
communication. When we have those, I’m sure the understanding between us will
pour down like honey from a rock. Many of my friends, either they’re
heterosexual or gay; they push themselves too hard to find a partner. Love
doesn’t mean to be hunted; it will find you when you’re time is right.
Sure we get hurt in many of our
life’s journey; it changed us into a different character as before. But it
never changes what we actually need. A simple metamorphosis of time only
brought a new additional value in every living mind on earth. “When you think you had enough of this life,
just hang on. …everybody hurts sometime.” It was beautifully written by
REM. I think its time for me to go out sometime, after so many months I missed
parties, social gathering, and i should start being in the game, enough with the observer. My best friend
left me, it’s really leaves a mark on me. It just how life’s giving me sign to
be more careful with who I’m hanging out with.
I have to travel the world,
experience different emotions in many lands. Seeking adventures and enjoyment
in cities all across the nation, that’s what I’ll do. I don’t change who I am, just
open my small little window to the world out there. Who knows my luck will fly
by at my window pane. I listen to Heaven Knows (No Frontiers) by The
Corrs version, and it really gives me new hopes in this year.
I go through all this
Before you wake up
So I can feel happier
To be safe up here with you
-Björk-
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