Last Saturday was absolutely out
of what you all have in mind in term of a weekend. For some normal people, it was supposed to be day
where we hang out with friends, but me: in my own dream world. That particular
Saturday was the day I was preparing myself and the whole team for an office
event: Success Seminar. Where the Millionaires, Team Elites and all the high
class society turned up in their best dress or suit, glittering the carpet with
their so-called-pin titles. We had to prepare
the event every 6 months, times for recognition, where their friends actually
see them walk up the stage after what they accomplish from their work.
Some people up there in clouds
having fun, while we the “underdog” had to work our ass off (ironically, it was
for them). But I was putting my heart for everything that I do, even my big fat
mouth talking tras
h about it. So, long before the event and preparation we were
divided into teams and couple team leaders. I was chosen to be one, and I’m
heading for 8 people handling the front stage. Unfortunately, I was the
youngest in the office and all my team members are way ahead older than me.
Some from the IT dept, some from Finance, etc. I know some names that are,
let’s say, recognized as the “sluggish bunch”, and I was right. Not even one
team briefing they showed up, reading the instructions I gave them (I dunno
whether they’re blind as well stupid, -but God forgive me- for giving them
details) and they still doesn’t care to the event!
Until the H-day and they are
simply just out of forgiveness, they are coming late, vanished into the thin
air when I needed them, and smoking in the alley when it’s their time to do what
they supposed to be doing. Jesus!! If I were the snake, that’s how I felt when he
got kicked out from Paradise. So I had to tell
them million times for what they are supposed to do, back and forth looking for
them, and being such a pain in their asses for doing the right thing! The thing
was, I didn’t know they hated me so much and planning to take revenge.
Today is Tuesday, the brightest
day God ever made because tomorrow is pay roll day. I was just finishing my
duties I‘m pending from last week of torment. Suddenly HR dept asked me to come
to her office and she in a straight-forward manner asking me what I had done to
slow down the internet connection. I was thinking it must be the Limewire I
just installed on my PC, so I told her about that and bingo! So she said the IT
dept found out I was the one that cause this ridiculous momentum and guilty as
charge. I said I’m sorry, uninstalling the software and thinking. Thinking why
I’m the one only accused for this issue, since I know other IT people and other
dept are doing the exact thing but never got fingered. My intuition giving me
vibes into my brain cells and flash my mind back to what happen during the
Saturday event and today was their payback time.
I assume they don’t like being
bossed by a kid and telling them what to do and this is how they backstabbed
me. Hmm, I was kinda surprised they don’t have the courage to just go straight
to my face and spit it out. Backstabbing, a word that are commonly used
especially in working environments. I wasn’t angry; I don’t feel any hate or
anything except disappointment. Okay, I take the blame for installing software
that isn’t job related, but being backstabbed is simply things cowards would
do. I remember my favorite song from Lauryn Hill, “Forgive Them Father” from
the album Miseducation of Lauryn Hill. One of the lyric saying: “That everyday people, they lie to God, so
what makes you think, that they won’t lie to you too.” Yea, maybe all I
need to wipe this disappointment in my heart is by forgiving them and walk
away. I don’t want to ruin my balanced energy for unnecessary things like them.
I was thinking to chop them into pieces like Dexter would do or put them into
the shredder and feed them to depths of hell. But that would just make me as
bad as them, ain’t it?
Sometimes is just hard to find
the white-crystal-clean are in our heart for forgiveness. The dark shadow of
hate and revenge is just too beautiful to resist. I can hate people too, I’m
just made of flesh and bones too, and sometimes I could smell the sweet blood
in the air when I hate someone. But there’s another extra ingredient my Creator
gave me, that is logic and super-extra-elastic of patience to handle every bad moment
that are occurred in my life lines. Every time one human disappoint me in any
way, I just think it’s an additional layer to my emotion so I can feel what is
actually living is. Feel, understand and learn.
Ps. The internet connection slowing down today was actually a server error and not my fault (like d’uh.. a single download of 3MB can caused a global damage impact)
You have something that they don’t got.Therefore, they’re jealous of you.Having people feeling jealous of you for nothing having what you got is one, out of the many,side effects of being such a great person !. Remember that.So when you meet them, just look at them and say ( in your mind, of course ), ” Gosh, I must be THAT good to make them feeling all that jealousy over me “. LOL !.. * hugs *
Ok. Correction section. 1).*…of NOT having. 2)*..to make them FEEL. It’s almost 2 am,so forgive me. Hehe.
i dont know watz in ur mind rily!!!
Well, that’s work life, dude.
Full of politics..
If ya can find ur “soulmates” in workspot, congrats u!!
If ya dun, just remember u’r comin to office not to make friends, but to earn ur cash. So just work your ass off and be strong. ^^
C’est la vie!
jEEz,.i D0nt th!nk s0.,!
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hmmm… i thought i was gonna read something ugly here.
It certainly did make you feel a lot better (i hope) to be able to blog it down and analyze the events. Then releasing the rage pounding the keyboard with well thought words no less. whew!
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you maintaned a good sense of yourself controlling your disapointments by letting it pass away..
its not very easy to do you know, forgiving people who hurt you..
but then we have to live life as we are expected of us..
but sometimes you have to fight. its not always that they are going to be right.. if you let keep things this way they will and do this to you until the day you give up and leave..
you know what? you just made me realize how greatful i am coz my officemates are not like yours…actually i’ve just installed my limewire…be patient…goodluck!
what a bad moment, be patient…..
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lot of people in these days cannot appreciate a good person.
“Inggit lng sila” (in english, they’re just envious) but it still sucks doesn’t it. Being the object of other people’s envy can be (most often) not a great feeling. You never know what man can do when “envy” reaches to escalating heights. Don’t hate them. Instead put yourself in their shoes, maybe you will find an answer to solve your problem. Good luck!
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Ck ck ck,,,
Above all God’s creatures (well..that we know the existence,,alien is excluded, ok?!), men should have had the best ability to understand others, simply because we have something that other don’t, called logic thinking. We have the best brain, for God’s sake!
But miraculously, it’s men also that has proved that they can be the meanest creature ever, “eating” even their own kind.
Being understand about this and just open up your heart to forgive, you may just enter the next level of so-called,,,humanity,,if it does exist,,anyway,,
wee its that your blog….
i respect your view in life bro!
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i like the way u see life…i kinda agree with u bout wat u just wrote…i sometimes think the same as u…some ppl may think tht i wouldnt b talkin bout this for bein too young but i know how a person feels….i just know
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i like your leadership skills~ and ohh your patience~ kinda suuupppeerrr oh?. spiderman! because haler!!!!!you’re still alive! heher just stay calm always as you are now for you gained more than what they’re thinkin! Management is devided as these MAN/AGE/MEN/T which T stands for Talent~ u already have that three as a MAN, the MEN, the talent ~ d AGE? don’t mind this thing for it is part of the constant thing in this world~ it change.. yearly, quarterly, monthly, weekly, hourly, in minutes or even in seconds- it counts!
And with those annoying creatures in your sorroundings just play with them for they are just these crab minded selfish individuals! GOOD LUCK!
keep goin’! that’s life!
Do everything! u think good for you…in work there is always a competent…just keep up the good work and love ur job….
nice write ups…
i thought i’m gonna read something bad but i found out it’s not. well! that’s life all you have to do is just do what you think is right and let them be. and keep up the good work…….and nice blog..
People can be such a pain in the ass. Its a good thing you know about forgiveness. Dont worry because our God know the motives in their hearts for doing such a thing.. One day they’ll get to pay for it.
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i feel so unappreciated either!
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life ends when u stop dreamin,hope ends when u stop believin love ends when u stop carin dream,hope,n love.. makes ur life beatiful
loving isn’t i think the best thing in life..for in my own experience it didn’t made me happy..love doesn’t last… there’s no love..
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Limewire at work??!! Do you also blog from your cubicle? And bittorrent? And photoshop too???!!
Wat were you thinking dude? If i were your boss, i’d fire you immediately. Unfortunately, sad to tell ya there’s no backstabbing issue here.
Wakey wakey. You’re on the wrong. Very.
For me its simple, be patient and having interpersonal relationship with people around you…just keep it up the gud works dude…Godspeed!!!
wow u got lots of supporters for ur blog. nice.
well.. dude thats life! but ur nice person
That’s liFe…
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whew! i thought i was gonna read something gruesome by your title like that. haha. .
know what? you have a hidden talent for writing . . thriller category suits you.
and lastly, i think you have so much emotional baggage pent up in there, that’s why things get’s expanded when you experience what you did.
it’s hitting a raw nerve.
uhm.. just want to share what you already ..
limewire eats up fixed size of bandwidth of your internet, whether your downloading something or not..
and your company have example, a bandwidth of 56 kbs, each limewire intalled in one PC eating up a bandwidth
of 5kbs..
okay, lets say there are 6 people, 6×5 would be 30,
deduct 30kps to the total bandwidth of the company..
the company’s left with 26kps bandwidth to share to the other users.
it really slows down the connection right?
now, imagine all of you in the office having a limewire connection? geez!!
hmmm…
watever!!!!
watever!!!!
better consult a psychiatrist!
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This is part of working life as you mentioned. It is a jungle out there. At least they don’t seem to be in friendly term with you. Even people who appear to be in friendly term with you, they can backstab you too. These are the worse kind!
I have learned that in working life, don’t trust completely any of your colleagues as far as work is concerned. It only take a right timing for the ugly side of your colleagues to strike you.
Oh yes, they are just trying to find a culprit to the network slow down. In the first place, can the HR show evidence that you caused the slow down in network traffic? I bet they can’t. If they do, IT need to provide them the data to show that your PC generated huge amount of network traffic. Of course, you are caught unaware and you were not sure at that moment too. You had no time to check as well.
I know exactly how you feel… You are not alone. But still lucky, you have the heart and mind to understand such situation which most of the pipol don’t have…
i find so interesting,this kind so
wow… that’s nice. I mean it’s nice that you get to express yourself this way rather than take revenge. I totally understand how it feels. I have not worked on companies or that we have exactly the same experiences, but we’re like on the same boat, mine is just more on the love side =) I’ve always asked myself what’s with age… well, it just doesn’t matter if you’re young at age, it totally doesn’t mean you can’t do anything. people mature on different ways. some mature early (just like me (–,)… it’s not with the age… we all have our brains and unique thoughts.. Are they just kinda insecure?? they envy you because you were given the chance to be the head.. and they can never have the chance to impress others… lol =) i thought of it that way…maybe they felt like being underestimated for having worked in that company for so long and being led by a youngster like you… hahaha =) They are your sandpapers… just always remember what sandpapers do =)tccic
just breath deeply and think a seconds turn the situation in reverse.what do you feel and dicide
keep up the god work
Heart is very important.
If you’ve put all ur heart into doing something, expecially in ur work, people can see, and people can feel. I know people will jealous things you’ve done and the good qualities u’ve got, I believe they will be touched by ur whole heart. It’r true.
I appreciate your big heart, for forgiving others.
NICE
the feeling is familiar. it happened to me. the feeling when you thought they are your friends but would only backstabbed you…yeah damn right. i hate them.
Well, still, looking at the positive side is the best way. Maybe things aint that bad actually.
Like the bible said, everything that ur going through will make tough then..
Just see the positive side..
GudLuCk..
Anyway, I like to read ur blog.. Looking forward the new one..