I have been beaten by my own
monster that has been sleeping all this time. When I thought it was peacefully,
left out of my consciousness, unaware of my presence. But once again, I was
wrong; it majestically stood above my weak heart and gave me a deep strong
stare from it beastly eyes.
His name is jealousy.
When people say don’t play with
fire, they mean it coz it could burn you like a dry leaf. It burn so fast you
don’t know you’re flaming in your own emotion since love blinded all your
senses. In this case, my fire started in time of my unconsciousness. But anyway
I put it; I should take our relationship for granted. 
I care for him so much; I
even gave up the ego in me in some part. I realize that this isn’t puppy loving
no more; it has grown into a mutual commitment that both of us surrender to
each other without losing our original code.
I realize that I have a part of
jealousy myself, when I thought it just a kiddy stuff in term of two mature
individuals. He gets close to this new person, and it drove me crazy. When I
say I’m crazy that means my heart bombing itself in so many little spot and so
many painful times. It was a bit of surprise actually that I have such a
feeling growing inside me. Never had one before, not in my previous
relationship, but this time it awaken suddenly and I lose control of it. I have
so many thought raging inside this tiny head of mine and feeling tired of this
endless battle within me.
“Don’t waste your time on jealousy, sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes
you’re behind, the race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.”
But I thanking the sweet Lord
above for connecting my destiny and understand that my source of light is
coming from this person. Cannot stop thinking bout him day and night, like a
sucka listening to crap love songs, but ‘tis true I tell yer mates! As God is
my witness, my heart has been captivated by a mere human as himself.
First there is desire
Then… passion!
Then… suspicion!
Jealousy! Anger! Betrayal!
Where love is for the highest bidder,
There can be no trust.
Without trust,.
There is no love!
Jealousy.
Yes, jealousy…
Will drive you… mad!
-the
moulin rouge-
Yeah, jealousy isn’t nice at all. I think u shud communicate with him, let him know ur feeling…
They say, what’s love without jealousy ?. The fear of losing someone that you love.And it’s kinda true,you know. You just have to know when to be jealous and when not to.And to control the amount of jealousy.But then again, doing all those things are the most difficult ones.You don’t know when jealousy has turned into a high sense of belonging or being all possesive.THEN,jealousy tends to eat you alive.But,you can always see it as another “color” for your relationship.It’s easier that way,don’t you think ?. *hugs and kisses*
Looking on the bright side is one way to prevent jealousy. Never let the darkness control your bright soul. Let it be light and the dark will go away.
yes,,look on the bright side, when you’re jealous, it means you care for someone,,
me?
i have really forgotten how does it feel,,
“to be jealous,,,”
I really like the photo. YEY!!
wow… u got me this time… i really love reading ur blog… i cant xpress wats inside me thru writing but u help me to shout it out…. love u…. grabe…. ur a big help