11
Jul
07

There Lies My Passion Hidden

I’m attached now, as my ball of
relationship has roll again and leads me to this Great War between ego and the
immense term of “us”.
I’m in love so desperately I would change their world to
match our world or destroy it and make a new one.
 He filled my puzzle yet he
try to solve my riddles. He shared the essence of Rainer, he taught me to love
again, feel the pain and gain the warmth of my beating heart.

Faces01_2

It has been exactly two month
since we shared our feelings and being commonly devoted to each other. It was
different from my past relationship, something unique
I cannot figure it out.
The difference was in me. I have become this paranoid person, fragile, I have
freed myself from a well-built cocoon and feel the unseen truth.
He made me
realize how defenseless I am to my own feelings. Probably many wounds I had not
totally gone, it is healed as I speak but the marks are still there.

Faces02

I know that is my own problems as
a grown mature person, I have to think clearly through my logic of what I have
learn all these times. We often disagree with something, the matter is not that
big actually but sometimes –again- we have our ego to won and lead us to
misunderstood complicated situation.
I admit I sometimes I’m hurt of what he
said when he’s angry, but maybe he’s hurt too by unfiltered truth. Good thing
is we both respect that difference and still based the same feeling we started
this relationship with.
We both realize that we cannot let our personality
being the gap of each our action and words to each other. Instead we try to be
understanding and it does works, we apologize and still remember the lesson
with not forgetting what we’ve done wrong.

Faces03_1

I love this man with all my
heart. The first steps were so hard because I cannot trust him in whatever he
does. And he doesn’t feel too comfortable with that, and so am
I. It’s like an automated program, my trauma kept on
haunting me. My bad experience has led me to a person where everything is
nothing but lies. Until one day, after we argue I promise to him I would trust
him in whatever he does.
And I taught myself that pain is one whole package
with love, one thing couldn’t live without the other one. My rusty door has
open once more and I must trust myself that this time he will close back the
door and stay in forever.

 

 




84 Responses to “There Lies My Passion Hidden”


  1. 1    Bitterness July 13, 2007 at 8:59 am

    so your in love eh ?. Good. Congrats. At least one of us is feeling that. * hugs *

  2. 2    ezy July 26, 2007 at 8:50 pm

    it’s very gud,,,,,

  3. 3    Lhaarnie July 26, 2007 at 8:56 pm

    i feel u…

  4. 4    ANALIE July 26, 2007 at 11:21 pm

    good blogs

  5. 5    F a R a July 26, 2007 at 11:54 pm

    nice….

  6. 6    tess July 27, 2007 at 12:19 am

    all s fair n love…love is complementing…good you found your balance. . enjoy the rides

  7. 7    ladielove July 27, 2007 at 2:43 am

    love is blind if both all in love

  8. 8    carmel July 27, 2007 at 4:12 am

    pwede butng ug blog

  9. 9    Alan July 27, 2007 at 8:32 am

    Bless u both! Love is where 2 souls share 1 heart. Live like in fairy tales & u’ll b happily ever after. Believe it, it’s true…

  10. 10    hari July 27, 2007 at 9:41 am

    bung gmn carax mbuat background agar lebih cantik gitu

  11. 11    Autobots July 27, 2007 at 10:27 am

    Hi wah backgroundnya ok juga

  12. 12    jacob July 27, 2007 at 8:15 pm

    nice. i hope everything goes well for you from now on

  13. 13    sharon July 27, 2007 at 10:56 pm

    living with lies, esecially if your inlove is not good to the relationship.
    …. But its good to hear that you’ve realize how to accept your mistakes… its now the time to MOVE ON!

  14. 14    sharon July 27, 2007 at 11:05 pm

    I know how you feel, but always remember in any relationship we can’t predict what would happen next. Saying I LOVE YOU or I TRUST YOU, is not enough to have someone. you have to ask yourself first AM I READY TO HAVE YOU?!…. anyway goodluck!

  15. 15    Joy July 28, 2007 at 12:49 am

    simply true

  16. 16    GADDI July 28, 2007 at 5:58 am

    Love is sweeter on the 2nd time.Wish you happiness and always stay in love.

  17. 17    Marivic July 28, 2007 at 8:06 am

    it is so easy for someone to express how he feels for another person,but we must also reconsider the fact that like friendship…you cannot trust this four letter word L-O-V-E..it can hurt you..goodluck…

  18. 18    Mamcie July 28, 2007 at 11:35 pm

    Intense…really for someone so young =). Lots of my friends will find this interesting. They hold the same intensity and passion…

  19. 19    rodan July 29, 2007 at 1:20 am

    nothing

  20. 20    catherine July 29, 2007 at 4:00 am

    so bitch!to fall in love again!!!>>>

  21. 21    dove July 29, 2007 at 8:50 am

    ya crazy inlove hehehe
    but life must go on…
    gve respect nlang sa isat isa ok…..

  22. 22    mark antony July 29, 2007 at 7:59 pm

    ano yan jowk invite no nlangako fzmarj_gy05@yahoo.com

  23. 23    tan July 30, 2007 at 12:02 am

    ur story is nice….good luck to u~~

  24. 24    catherine July 30, 2007 at 12:13 am

    passion hidden

  25. 25    Hefty July 30, 2007 at 1:36 am

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  26. 26    stephanie July 30, 2007 at 4:38 am

    dont give up…. for love is a long suffering…..

  27. 27    hevi July 30, 2007 at 11:17 pm

    it’s good

  28. 28    hanna July 31, 2007 at 12:25 pm

    …ummm i think we were the same situation and i can easily relate with your feelings! ..naaah… but the thing is ‘life must go on’ we never know what will happen next? what i did is to pray and asking HIM for giving me enough strenght to face all trials that HE given to me. just move on dude! always wear your killer smile.. ok? have a great time, God bless…

  29. 29    rodel July 31, 2007 at 6:28 pm

    09218232716….txt u me

  30. 30    Reychell August 1, 2007 at 4:00 am

    Love without trust is not love at all. Believe me. It’s not healthy to always feel as if you are cheated. Trust though, in any case, is EARNED. He must prove to you that he is worthy of it.

  31. 31    ' ' ' Joyce August 1, 2007 at 8:48 am

    Well, life if full of promises… love and get hurt..love and get hurt. Its just in the same process till you meet the right person who’s worthy of your love. Never close your door til you get married and thats the time you can ever say to yourself that youve found your other half which will perhaps complete you no matter how strong the winds may come but still you will be willing to stand with him because of Love.

  32. 32    ian August 2, 2007 at 1:33 am

    hilo can we f4riend

  33. 33    Lee August 2, 2007 at 10:04 pm

    of memory and forgetting?

  34. 34    marie cris August 2, 2007 at 11:52 pm

    hi! im so cute pic,

  35. 35    ' jjumeii August 3, 2007 at 10:15 pm

    woah! Though I don’t really know you but you’re a good writer.That’s such a good english! Woah ! You should be an author. I’ll be the first buyer of your book.

  36. 36    Tang August 5, 2007 at 5:15 am

    amazing! You should consider publishing!!!

  37. 37    ' Salha ' August 7, 2007 at 4:13 am

    sometimes i understand you but sometimes you lost me

  38. 38    bong August 7, 2007 at 9:55 pm

    I was in the same shoe, then. Now, Im enjoying being single; pretending im taken but very much available.

  39. 39    khEnNhEth August 11, 2007 at 6:28 pm

    heloh. .

  40. 40    januarnel August 11, 2007 at 11:11 pm

    duh????????????????????

  41. 41    mae August 12, 2007 at 5:30 pm

    i have no comments!!!!!!!very talinted u..sana pagandahin u ulit!!!

  42. 42    justin August 12, 2007 at 8:04 pm

    great HuH!!!

  43. 43    Ara Mae August 13, 2007 at 1:20 am

    hehhehehehehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeee/

    nice to meet you all

  44. 44    Cyd August 13, 2007 at 6:38 am

    go girl!!!

  45. 45    Ryan Joseph August 14, 2007 at 12:21 am

    well u’ll never know what wiil happen to you tommorow,hehehe

  46. 46    Remia August 14, 2007 at 12:44 am

    luv is blind huh!!!
    What is LOVE without TRUST!

  47. 47    Charmaine August 14, 2007 at 6:25 pm

    LoVe hAs ItS OwN UpS aNd DoWns.. jUsT hoLd oN 2 1 AnOtHeR!

  48. 48    noeme August 14, 2007 at 8:46 pm

    bravo…a vry byutiful blog…
    love is sacrifice….

  49. 49    kriStine jaKe August 14, 2007 at 10:12 pm

    nakakamiss ang batangas.. wish ko lang, namimiss ako ng batangas.. hehe..

  50. 50    kriStine jaKe August 14, 2007 at 10:16 pm

    di pala enjoy dito sa manila.. hehe..

  51. 51    GINNY August 15, 2007 at 1:50 am

    got yah dude!

  52. 52    giNe August 15, 2007 at 7:49 pm

    be strong!!!
    hurt is the spice of love!!!

  53. 53    jonathan August 16, 2007 at 12:07 pm

    may be your first experience abot love, you were telling some things to yourself like: I should have known he could break my heart, should have known he could walk away. i should have known not to fall so far, should have known it could end this way….but you know, EVERYBODY HAS TO LOVE AND LEARN.
    —> this time,you know better what to do. you know now what you didn’t know then!…go ahead and love another but don’t let that another love another aside from you coz ones that happens, A three time loser will never learn!

  54. 54    JeAn August 16, 2007 at 1:33 pm

    nice blogs..

  55. 55    Brian sameer August 16, 2007 at 6:12 pm

    Oh well, love is definitely creeping up on you. don’t let it slip away. Love free or Die Hard!

  56. 56    aNnSkY August 18, 2007 at 5:37 am

    ann

  57. 57    Martin August 18, 2007 at 8:37 am

    hmm… are you gay? xD

  58. 58    Reymond August 19, 2007 at 6:39 am

    be strong jejejejeje…. v

  59. 59    i S h Y August 19, 2007 at 6:40 am

    i could feel how in love you are! please add me…

  60. 60    noreen August 19, 2007 at 7:36 am

    you did that? wow. c”,)

  61. 61    uLLYnX August 19, 2007 at 12:27 pm

    heLLo…!!!
    how are you???

  62. 62    louarmie August 20, 2007 at 12:10 am

    ur a guy whose inlove with a guy too????

  63. 63    Mitchi August 20, 2007 at 7:12 am

    This is so true… And I am having this feeling currently… Would it be good? Or bad? *sigh*

  64. 64    cutie August 20, 2007 at 10:56 pm

    I’m so touch because you really love each other. Continue loving one another and don’t change the good side of your love only the bad side so that you will be more strong to fight the urge that will come in your life.GOODLUCK

  65. 65    wHiTeEyE xvii August 21, 2007 at 2:47 am

    pls give me a favor,,,,
    how can i create my blog and add images about it?

    thanks and godbless

    nice blog it is very touching…keep it up…..
    have a nice day

  66. 66    gama August 21, 2007 at 8:18 am

    I get impressed to read ur experience. Great, touching….

  67. 67    allle August 21, 2007 at 10:26 pm

    he….he…he…he….heeeeeeeeeeee…..
    i wana introduce my self 2 u, so hw do u do?

  68. 68    Manok August 22, 2007 at 12:43 am

    he’s gay?!

  69. 69    Manok August 22, 2007 at 12:55 am

    he’s gay?!

  70. 70    jess August 22, 2007 at 2:25 am

    wzuupp!!!guyzZZ..

  71. 71    charlie August 23, 2007 at 4:18 am

    it seems your bothered with your past relationship,.. trust is one of the main ingredients of any kind of relationship and you have to work for it.

  72. 72    SUPERMAN August 23, 2007 at 6:46 am

    its seems that u suffer a lot from the pain but make it a step to have joy in life , learnt form it …and move….

  73. 73    melliza August 23, 2007 at 4:06 pm

    LOVE - the most used and abused word in this world.

  74. 74    Dyg August 23, 2007 at 7:34 pm

    Love is too beautiful to describe in words …
    I myself are in love & it makes me complete …

  75. 75    niCa August 23, 2007 at 9:36 pm

    love is not love unless you feel joy and pain. Ü

  76. 76    jonelyn August 25, 2007 at 1:28 am

    love is unconditional,..,

  77. 77    ' ' ' Haruko August 25, 2007 at 11:11 pm

    hi

  78. 78    Anncy August 26, 2007 at 3:25 am

    eow? poE ztah?? kAunG lHt>….

  79. 79    jess August 27, 2007 at 6:31 am

    hEy wAzZuPp

  80. 80    shang August 27, 2007 at 9:42 pm

    i find your story very interesting..
    wish we could be friends.
    pls email or txt me
    gracie_july@yahoo.com
    09154177896
    09214997417
    thanks

  81. 81    Leia August 29, 2007 at 4:10 am

    I am truly touched by your posts. I’m wounded though I must admit that when we love someone we need to set him free. I do believed that if he comes back you are meant to be. When we are in love, these intense and overwhelming feelings, often dangerously forgetting that it has consequences. And that is to get hurt. Your true feelings are very visible. I hope you’ll find true contentment.

  82. 82    Zaldy August 29, 2007 at 4:12 am

    This one is profoundly written. I can feel the emotion.

    Carpe Diem!

  83. 83    angelic August 29, 2007 at 7:48 am

    full of emotions…gudluck

  84. 84    -jelyn- August 30, 2007 at 1:41 am

    oh God! welcome honey… i was electrified by your words.. i admit i’ve seen my relationchip embedded in your words..horrible…just to honest but sweet… love is sweet…

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