30
Aug
07

Eye, Love, Pain

Yesterday the moon was at its
most beautiful. The color was very orange almost blood-red, as big as if it’s
giving so much
protection. I smile and just silently looked up at the clear
night sky, letting my mind roam
free.

Time is sliding away from my hands,
when she starts counting on my days I could never remember who I am and where
I’m standing. My life was nothing but a
big wide space to let people draw upon
it with their colors: black, grey, violet,
red and another black. What? Yes, I
still consider them as colors, so it is in my world and me as its monarch.
Where I could jump, scream, cry, pray, orgasm between my wisdom and even
afraid
of the nothingness
, it is all possible in my self-cocoon-shelter.

Away from realm world and step
into so-called-reality, I hear voices calling my name. Letter by letter, soft,
tender and addictive, please welcome love. He’s so gentle I could hang on to
him forever, never feel
bored or nauseous. But sometimes the love is so great
it brings me
fear. The fear of losing and left behind, the fear where I don’t
have myself anymore since the moment I’m giving in to his hands.Hug_me

Then start come pain, it grew
slowly, crawling
inertia creeps it began to nurture myself into someone fragile
and defenseless
. So confusing because that pain comes from the very same heart
at first giving me
comfort! Every power within just surrendering to it, leaving
no space to breathe or think or even dance to its death rhythm.

Life knew me so well, he told
time to stop for a while so I could think. Up in the roof-top, I just sit there
alone, listening to the sound of the night, my heart beating slowly almost in a
stop mode. Quite.
Peace. Nothing. From that nothing I have something to believe
in:
myself. From all the weary episodes of my life, I began to see my
interlude. I see that the love that we both develop is actually crystal clear
and very see through.

We always overlooked from the
very same spot we connected,
the vibe is there but we didn’t feel and listen.
That love is actually there, just like the truth everyone believes, so alive
like the air every creatures breathing. Even though we’re so different,
actually we have so many likenesses in each other.
A puzzle completes another.

Truth is painful, but it always
telling us the
right thing to do.

 




29 Responses to “Eye, Love, Pain”


  1. 1    Norman August 30, 2007 at 8:26 am

    The truth is painful, but anyway truth is the best way. When you work out with the truth, then he’ll set you free. As always, “the truth will set you free”

  2. 2    EMDY August 30, 2007 at 6:31 pm

    AHUH LOVE HURTS!

  3. 3    -kArEn- August 31, 2007 at 1:35 am

    its better to be loved and lost..than never loved at all..

  4. 4    '-'sheng'-' August 31, 2007 at 3:51 am

    love love love… what’s good in that..

  5. 5    '-'sheng'-' August 31, 2007 at 4:02 am

    hurt is the reaction of the heart when it disagrees with what our mind tells us. we know what to do but we just can’t accept it..

  6. 6    Bitterness August 31, 2007 at 10:19 am

    I never had any doubts about love.I know it’s there.I know i’s beautiful.But I’ve never been given the chance to keep it.Either to keep there or to keep it beautiful.It always ended up in tears and pain.And,I do too feel it coming from the same heart that gave me all those beautiful feelings that came along before them.
    Baby,I don’t know exactly what you’re goin through.But whatever it is,just listen to your heart.If you feel like stopping,then stop.If you feel like moving on,then do so.And no matter how it’ll end,at least.. you were being honest to yourself.At least,you did what you wanted to do.At least,you tried.So there shall be no regrets. Love you *hugs and kisses*

  7. 7    gama August 31, 2007 at 7:25 pm

    truth just like a clearly confusing puzzle sometimes…. and yeah from you description, you seem know more how to cope the truth….

  8. 8    -jelyn- August 31, 2007 at 11:14 pm

    wow! (gaping)

  9. 9    irish arlyn September 1, 2007 at 2:25 am

    …………..

  10. 10    ofel September 1, 2007 at 5:47 am

    there’s thin line between truth and lies… whichever we choose, we will experience pain but later on, peace…

  11. 11    BlackWiDoe September 1, 2007 at 9:28 am

    we all need some truth some time.

  12. 12    -bEm gArNet- September 1, 2007 at 8:04 pm

    wow!i fee for you☺

  13. 13    Lanz Andrei September 2, 2007 at 7:23 am

    LOVE is always gives us balance to learn…happy and sad…you will learn to correct mistakes because of love…love makes us a strong individual to face the more challenging world…that is life!

  14. 14    anGGra September 2, 2007 at 10:42 pm

    nice blog…

  15. 15    danny September 3, 2007 at 4:12 am

    which one is BETTER ???
    - nenek2 lg jahit diatas kursi goyang
    - orang duduk diatas pohon
    - kelinci
    - ato orang lg sembahyang
    [itu tuch... aku lg ngobrolin guratan2 yg bs kita liat d "pnampakan" bulan wkt purnama]

    ~ beautiful made by nature, human make some pretty….. (n we know: c h a n g e is certain)

  16. 16    danny September 3, 2007 at 4:14 am

    which one is BETTER ???
    - nenek2 lg jahit diatas kursi goyang
    - orang dudukNeduh dbawah pohon
    - kelinci
    - ato orang lg sembahyang
    [itu tuch... aku lg ngobrolin guratan2 yg bs kita liat d "pnampakan" bulan wkt purnama]

    ~ beautiful made by nature, human make some pretty….. (n we know: c h a n g e is certain)

    [abaikan comment sbelumnya! ada yg salah ketik ^^]

  17. 17    kHiSzy September 10, 2007 at 2:57 am

    wat more can love do???

  18. 18    rhomerick September 13, 2007 at 8:32 pm

    ayos lang

  19. 19    Andre September 14, 2007 at 2:18 am

    Wewwwwwww !!!!

  20. 20    Nath September 17, 2007 at 1:19 am

    Have u ever think that actually we love other people more than we love ourself that why we’re end up hurt all the time?
    probably we should learn to love ourself more , before we learn to love others..
    i am more like you, that’s why i know exactly how u felt.. and its aint easy .. but if we never learned then we will end up the same isnt it?

  21. 21    natali September 26, 2007 at 11:40 pm

    love is cinta….love is mahal…love is love…

  22. 22    chat October 25, 2007 at 12:22 am

    kaya nga di ako nagmamahal, natatakot akong masaktan…..ewan pero im hoping pa rin na dumating yong taong pinagpipray ko……

  23. 23    faith October 27, 2007 at 1:19 am

    how a nice piece is it your true experience? somtyms we nid na masaktan p muna bago natin makita kung ano ang tama not bad because its a part of living……..

  24. 24    nur October 27, 2007 at 3:53 am

    u have to write a short story or novel. i think u have a talent to be a writer. okay?

  25. 25    'Simply Vava' October 30, 2007 at 6:50 am

    i love your writing…

  26. 26    Dang November 10, 2007 at 3:39 am

    you should take all the consequences when you fall in love…being hurt is part of it…

  27. 27    Dang November 10, 2007 at 3:40 am

    you should take all the consequences when you fall in love…being hurt is part of it…

  28. 28    pamela November 13, 2007 at 12:42 am

    Love..don’t judge it..it is beautiful to those who knows to appreciate and understand..
    love until you hurt…then there will be no more hurt but only MORE LOVE…
    Hurt..be friend with it and by doing so..you will more appreciate love.They are great GIFT from God to you..
    *Beautiful thought of yours, i like it..*

  29. 29    kidCaT January 11, 2008 at 12:26 am

    “Truth is painful, but it always telling us the right thing to do.”. Yeah… Sometimes, we don’t have the choice but to accept the truth, what ever will be it’s outcome, we must know that telling the truth will lead us to the right way… it’s just a matter of acceptance… ^_^

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