Here I go again, letting go again
all of my soundless feelings. I find comfort here coz I know what I have lost,
it is myself. Ever since I’m giving in to someone I love so much I knew from
that moment I must leave my ego behind. Even though they’re leaving marks, I
always believe its worth to fighting for.
He made my cry again last night,
I can see myself in peaceful pain. With all the unspoken lies, covered in sweet
words and blinded justice. Cannot reckon how many times he leaves me with scars
that only time can heal and one small hope to hold on to. Life has revolve me
into someone with so flexible patience, very big heart in this small world full
of unbearable reality.
As a human being we all know when
got tricked once we should learn, as a logic individual we all know that once
we got hurt we must learn not to at the second time. But this time is so
different, like a cocoon the love has covered my vision and logic. Walking
crossed the line of insanity into so powerful light of be in love with. Like a
sponge, the hurt just sucked into my heart pores, leaving it back dry just like
it started.
But I realize how heavy it has
become now. He always come back in the sweetest way of saying sorry and endless
apology. When all is okay, when nothing erupt in our relationship, he always
think of something that makes it not okay. He said he felt suffering with
everything around him, I asked him whether that “everything” includes me?
Hmph…the answer is always predictable: he don’t know.
I just never understand why does
human running form their problems?? That is not the way to solve things. We can
run but we know we doesn’t have a place to hide. Solutions comes when we dare
to face what has been the center of the problems. With a clear head and a big
heart, that dilemma will end.
Only one thing I asked him to do:
be honest with himself. If he cannot be honest with himself how can he be
honest with me. I never can read his mind like one of those Heroes character,
the police guy. His Gemini is just to strong for my Libra. All I see is a
secret world kept away from me, he kept it so tight that not even one fresh air
can seep through for him to breathe.
Back to the first love we both
had in our hands. It always happen to be stronger than anything. So powerful it
can me stand tall with all his wind blowing so nasty. So devoted it can kept me
hold on my fingers full of scars. So glowing it can show us the way out of the
dark forest of relationship. I always believe in myself that this stuff is
worth to fighting for.
I wait for you until the dawn
My mind is ripped my heart is torn
And love is strong and your so sweet
Your love is bitter its taken neat
The Rolling Stones
i like reading your posts. its disturbing especially when i can see bits of me in it. take care
i love you
ada yg bilang…
l o v e is (such) a sweet tourment…
~ illness that u wont be cured of it -
[weii... mrusak komen2 bagus dBlogs-mu] ^^
LOVE hurts, heals but mostof all, loving needs wisdom..
way lami
” Only one thing I asked him to do: be honest with himself. If he cannot be honest with himself how can he be honest with me “……….. there’s your answer,babe…
If he can’t find a way to be honest with you,then what are you doing with him then ??. Are you willing to gamble ?.Are you ready to lose everything ??. If you are,then be my guest. I’m here for you anyway..
Oh,and one more thing.. I don’t like it when people makes you cry !!.Really, I DON’T !!. * hugs and kisses *
ano ba 2.????
Love can make us lost our mind..
love can make our live be better
love it! fight! aja!
love is the sweetest thing ever…..
I think you need a little jolting to wake you up. From what you said, he does not love you at all, he is merely using you, so let go and enjoy your freedom until a deserving love comes along. God bless!
gO gUrl. .
i lOvE yOur
pOsTs!!
iT sO
iNspiriNg.
tAkE cAre
alwAyS aNd
gOd blEsS!!!
mwApZzz…
ibigin mo ng tunay ang sarili mo dahil pag hindi as mamahalin mo ang ibang tao
ur ryt if we get hurt we learn from that & we have to move on!!!!!!!!!!!! mkalimutan mo rin siya ur not meant to be
hey…we’re almost the same…
and uhmmm…it really strucks me when i’ve read it…
and they’re right…
if u feel rejected…then,,,just let go of him,,,
there’s someone that Gods’ prepared for you…
wait for the right time…’till that person comes in ur life!
God bless!
it so hurt to love…love hurts totally….we keep on learning when we love..but still we cant avoid to get hurt again for its part of loving until we cant meet our right 1………..i really apreciate this coz me even can relate of hurting a lot coz i love………
d ko type
I love so much,,,,,i love you….the greatest writer of the century!!!
hahai…………
gwapa jud
i love this..
ouch!!!it reminds me of my inner feeling ayt now…thanks…i love this blog cool!!though painful…its a reflection of being true, of being inlove, loved in return?or maybe not?
hi…i just read this awhile ago…just to share…
“in HIS love, you will still recall your past but HE will heal you so thoroughly that you can think of that memory but NO LONGER HAVE THE PAIN.”
Godbless
your my idol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this posting reminds me with im felling now… loving someone that i can’t read his mind and sitll don’t know waht his thingking. put my trust to him but its just a daydreaming.. hiks..hiks…
and i know i must let him go and forget him..
what can i say..its human nature to feel that way..but one thing i should say to you,love your self more than anyone else because when everything falls apart you can only be with your self and only you can undewrstand your own being..no one choked to death in swallowing they’re pride and ego but if its too much already and it gives you so much pain,then stop..
sumtyms.. actually.. v cant juz expect so much from sum1.. da most wonderful ting in relationship iz 2 learn da
concept ov giv n take…
hi..ur great!!..yeah,ur ryt..”he olweyz bak wid d sweetst soryyyy…evr….rrr..
Her Gemini was too strong for my Taurean too.
Hope you find the happiness you deserve, be it with him or moving on to something altogether different and new.
I Felt the Same fEeling as The PerSon HidinG inside..,The Writer Of thIs blog..,Too mUch pAin thAt nEEds to bE reLeased..,Just Hold on..,like wHat im Doing righT now..,Coz oppOrtuniTies Knocks onCe in A liFe time..,you’ll nEver know iF this will Be thE last..,! If u Relly lOve him..,Fight 4 him..,