Softness of Norah’s voice in her
song “Nearness of You” just friendly-accompanying
me in this rainy night of
November. There’s a lot of changes happen in a zap of light, I mean rapid,
really. I lost my job after more than 2 years, we are late paying the rent, a
space we lived in, me and my boyfriend, and this whole situation just changed
me totally.
I always believe that there’s
God’s plan in all this changes, the sweet Lord wouldn’t lead us to the valley
of shadow won’t He? There’s nothing more changeable than the changes itself.
And the condition where I put my mind and spirit now just brought me to a new
vision. That the universe is answering to my calling, my part now is just
receiving.
I lived in a situation where I’m
comfort at, ya know, where the grass is green and the weather just perfect. But
this is no good, coz I have a goal that I have to fulfill. An intimate ambition
towards a mutual personality and self development. It takes more than 300
Spartans or 4 super heroes combine all together for me to achieve my dreams. If
50 Cents were here, he would say: “Get Rich or Die Tryin”..haha.
I always dream of a better
living, I’m supporting myself together with my spouse, we’re having a nice
descent living place in New York. Me running my own art gallery, filled with
creativities from all over the world. With a little black cat and
soft-light-brown wall colors, where we have 3 bedrooms and a mini-bar. If I
peeked out to the window in the morning, I’d see busy day of NYC filled with
hedonism and individual-workaholic-pressured-world. We’d have two cars (one
Japanese and one Italy) in the garage, a butler, a chef and a handyman.
But again, to have all the things
I’m dreaming above, I must have something to smack me up and get my ass to
move. So, life has giving me the key and lead me to the door. I’ll start
applying for Canadian citizenship, start my life from scratch there, then in
the next few years I’ll hop into USA and living my life in New York. All I
gotta do is believing, working and praying and the universe will start do the
rest.
A little thunder and wind along the way wouldn’t hurt, coz all I see up
front is my new Jerusalem.
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Hi, I read almost your blogs..I really like it because my life is almost a mirror of what you’d written..hold on, there’s hope beyond closed doors.. A gate is opening and new and happier phase can be entered or unveiled. Make a wish upon a Star, and it will surely come true, but be prepared to sacrifice something in return. Take care, kyell
d r e a m
all u have to do is dreaming
[n believe that u able to reach it]
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hi Bett3r….
your story ,make little cry..
but i’m sure you will be better……be better and always be good!!!
cause, i know that you are though Man, who dare the rule of universe…
i’m wait you in Yahoo messanger………
This will make you even stronger.That’s what problems in life do. They make us stronger.
And you will be,darling. I know you will.
You do remember I’m here right ?.
*hugs and kisses (always)*
it makes me remember this old book of little known fairy tales my grandmother once gave me,and one of the stories was about the princess who defied the request of a powerful enchantress. As punishment,her prince and her child were taken away from her, and she was told that she would not find them until she had journeyed on foot long enough to wear out 4 pairs of iron sandals, and 6 walking staffs. Along the way she meets a guide who tells her to save and keep all the chicken bones she can collect on her journey. Finally,after journeying through deserts,craggy mountains, and dark forests,after enduring cold,hunger,fear and loneliness, and ofcourse, wearing out 4 pairs of iron sandals and 6 walking staffs, she reaches a tower without steps or a ladder that she must climb in order to reunite with her husband at the top. Intuitively the princess remembers the her stash of chicken bones and builds a ladder out of them(the bones magically sticking together is an unexpected bonus for her). Finally when she is nearing the top,she finds that she is short of one chicken bone/rung to reach her husband,so she cuts off her own finger and uses that as the last rung she needs to get her husband and child back.
I don’t know why the story story really struck. I must have been only seven when I read it. Perhaps it strucks me because it has such a strong female protagonist. But somehow throughout this journey, I had come to understand what the story really meant. The iron sandals represents certain paradigms or world-views that we “wear”, ones that naturally “wear out” on our journey. Walking sticks are beliefs or principles that we lean on to aid us during certain portion of the journeys but which must also be discarded and renewed when it just doesn’t fit the reality around us anymore. We throw away old walking sticks to find better ones to lean on. The chicken bones are experiences or lessons which seem meaningless or irrelevant as they happen, but turn out to be valuable later on. And the act of cutting her finger off represents the final sacrifice. the final test, the final temptation to turn back as we stand one rung away from our goal.
halu