It’s almost 2am and the world is
fast asleep. I’m sitting quiet under the pale moonlight, sharing its sadness
throughout the warm-weathered-city. Thinking alone, pondering my mind wide to
the open sea of city lights: why am I not happy in this end year of 2007? Am I
missing something? Is there anything could make me opposite of what I’m feeling
right now? Dear God help me.
Many things I have achieved
during these past times, many things I overlooked and missed, but all I can say
mission is accomplished with satisfying process. Yes, what matter most (well,
at least to me) is process, a progress we all must go through in every state of
life. A baby must learn to walk and talk; a teen must seek their identity in
community, an adult must seek their time of settled in life, a senior must find
their warm bed to die on and a soul must find their light to walk into.
But for me, what have I learned
from the past years of my living hood? I learn how human emotion are the most
complex thing in my life, how I must be capable to organize them and illustrate
them on the right time and place. How logic is the mainly object to our sanity
walking this ridiculous life journey, things we thought are making no sense at
all is the most logic thing in life. With help of some unsung heroes in our
lives, we try to move on to the next stage of life-book. A sprinkle of courage
and a tea-spoon of faith led our little foot crossing the bridge of doubt.
There I go again, mumbling
garbage to your thoughts and trying to brainwashed your unwritten unthinkable.
At least I’m being honest to myself and to the society that’s being more and
more hypocrite these days. “Make me
recall my days in New Jerusalem” that’s what Lauryn Hill sang to the world
that is full of fake dreams. My brothers and sisters, I really know for sure
that each of our tiny little heart has our own Jerusalem to reach; that special
little place where we could be happy each seconds of our life, either with our
loved ones, wealth, and freedom of will where nothing is the limit.
For a phoenix to be born, it must
die first (that’s what Professor Dumbledor told me). Well, it’s close enough
for me to accept as true, coz yea, when I think about it its kinda reflecting
to my own journey. I was dark, cold and closed to the world outside. My room is
the only abyss to my witty sorrow and my heart had become an endless fountain
of my disappointment to the humanity. Until one day I let eyes see the bright
light of hope from the small crack of my soul, it’s too bright at first until
it can adjust to the softness beam, like the sunset in the sea horizon.
The process might be long and
unpleasant but when we all can accept who we are in the journey, life is an
excellent teacher. The year has giving us so much, what matter most how we can
repay it? For me living my life to the fullest is the most self satisfying
contribution, at least to me. Friends, family and love are just what make it
more interesting. So, go on and get to know yourself much better next year, as a
start for a New Year resolution.
“In acceptance, lies peace”
We can’t change our outward circumstances, these are beyond our control and we are responsible only for things under our control.But we can, and should, change our inward attitude to them.
Have a great new year!
thank you…
eow puhhh
oh, it’s a nice dedication in life
i lovee this post..
wow… are u some kind of a writer?
it seems that u love writing..
I know that feeling when you are up at night looking down on a city of lights. It’s part of heaven, it’s part of hell. You love it, you hate it. It makes you grow up so fast and yet numb your senses dead. Part of life, I guess. I love you writing. Poetic. Melancholy. A deadly cocktail of perseverance.
My Goshh..!! I love it!!!
very well written…i like the mental labyrinth you set there :o)
kudos, a wonderful piece!
wat a piece..though i’m not adept in some words, i truly appreciate the thoughts came from this piece..mabuhay ka..
yeah, it happen to all people in any walks of life,wondering what our life tommorow or what is the fruit of what we’ve done.. for me life is a very special way of living in eternal,though its full of struggle you must be stronger enough to beat this all odds, and it will happen when you meet HIM (CHRIST JESUS)in your way…..SO TO ALL READERS just hold on and ask HIS guidance…. at sa iyo mabuhAY ka…
well very moving eulogy ….hey hey by fiding out what make oneself partly tolerable is a sure sign of defeat<
Behold! in the creation of the heavens
and the earth; in the alternation of the
night and the day;
in the sailing of the ships through the ocean for the profit of mankind; in the rain which Allah
Sends down from the skies, and the life which He gives therewith to an earth that is dead; in the
beasts of all kinds that He scatters through the earth; in the change of the winds, and the clouds
which they trail like their slaves between the sky and the earth;- (Here) indeed are Signs for a
people that are wise.” —Holy Quran,Surah Al-Bakarah, Verse 164.
We spend too much time pondering over and over again to satisfy our mortal nessecity but we can only achieved happiness and satisfaction that is temporary and then back to zero and pursue the deception of mortal nessecity..
natural calamities like earthquakes cannot be interpreted as punishment of the Almighty but it is a signs to ponder that we have only two final destiny which is HEAVEN and HELL(a good and evil)has to go forever in two separate way…it’s a choice of accountability..
yeahhhhhh men!!!!!!!it happen in any people men!!!!!!!!!!
u got a nice blog here.. i agree to most of ur opinions.. its refreshing to read such blog like this.. i envy you coz u can put ur emotions into writing.. ope i can do that too… =) it would be a nice outlet..
Eow……Add me plz….
wow… just ordinary thoughts( as all people can relate )but expressed in an extraordinary way. A Great One! Keep it up!
As life goes by..we must lived to survive….for many reason…
undescribeable. EXCELENT!!!
Sorry out of the topic,but you’ve got a nice bod dude! It’s kinda adorable. If not knowing you at all, maybe I fall. *__*
I’m really sorry, I love the pic you used,more meaningful than usual.
What an inspiring post u have here…
hi, your pretty good..ö
no one can ever say he never felt alone a bit moment in his life. no one can ever tell he will never be out of track. for we are just human, innately imperfect and is bound to feel this emotions. but we have just to be strong and like you’ve said leave life to it’s fullest despite the odd side of our life.
hope u find that piece to make u feel whole.
Beautiful acceptance but not enough understanding. I suggest: Javanese philosophy. It’ll sure take you deep to the tip of the roots of life if you learn thorough.
Wow! nice post!! You enlighten my mind!!! hahaha!!.. I love this post!!! Inspiring!
maganda ….. uuuuuuuuuu sarap
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