Bra1n-w@shed

I look into the mirror

See myself, I’m over me

I need space for my desire

I have to dive into my fantasies

I know as soon as I arrived, everything
is possible

Coz no one has to hide beyond
the invisible

-Enigma "Beyond Invisible"-

Here I am rolling my eyes into
this new chapter of 2008, a year where before I couldn’t imagine in my past.
But look at us now, walking steadily among the wreckage last year had left for
us. As I try to build the pieces back, glue bits into another bits and I can
see where my light guide me to. Send me a sign from the sunshine and songs of
the black bird; I can hear my footsteps like marching of an ant on this empty
new hall. People start to make plans, lovers holding even tighter, convicts
start counting their days to freedom. Many more things I can’t describe in the
great year of 2008, but I believe.

Gawd, I couldn’t believe that my
life would become this boring after I’m unemployed. Some things were fun, for
instance I could sleep until noon or just simply watching Dexter season 2 DVD
all day long. While my boyfriend is out to work, I wonder my mind out of our
rental space. Take a glimpse to the world out there nowadays where I could
think a million thoughts and put it in words, just like what I’m doing right
now.

Last weekend was really
from the moving we had. Yea, we moved our rent to a bigger space
just two blocks away. It’s cheap but the facilities just can’t compare to our
last one. We didn’t have our hot water anymore, or cable-TV or cooking
facility. But we trying to manage things up, until we can figure the cost of
those things and sparing our dimes bit by bit for our convenient living. The landlord
was quite nice to us; she’s an old Chinese lady in her 60’s I think. She’s
willing to bare half the cost when we request to renovate the bathroom, thanks
God.

It’s been rough for quite sometimes now, but we manage to pull things through.
Me and my boyfriend are just trying to hold on to each other and figure out how
can we survive at least until we are sure for some things to be settle. Yeah,
when things are out of focus and blur, all we have to do is point our vision to
one spot and believe. Coz when you believe many things you can achieve (hahaha….some
whitney’s crap). Anyway, if you really think about it there’s some truth in it.

Just believe things will get better.

Don’t expect anyone else to
support you.

Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe
you have a wealthy spouse;

but you never know when either
one might run out.

-Baz Luhrmann "Everybody’s Free"-