Again, a human child is picking
up pieces of his tormented heart. Down in a city of full gold lights and
individualism, he sat down alone wondering if anybody felt what he felt now.
Sickened by the hours ticking and the time of waiting his whole life he wonders
alone. Why does a heart that is so fragile, that is soft yet strong that is
supposed to be the same weight, the same red and flowing blood through every
tiny canals is so hurt in his body? A question that could never be tame by any
scholar or any professor in this smart world nowadays.
We are being told that no matter how much pain the truth
brought, the truth speaking itself are most valuable. I just realize that I
cannot live for what I am speaking now. It does hurt so much it’s just making a
war between sweet memories I have lived once. That’s why I don’t like to deal
with feelings at the very beginning. 
Giving chance to it was the first mistake
I make followed by illusory solace from time to time, trying to cover the lies
up. No, we cannot swathe lies with another lies.
Dim as the light night gave us,
sour as the speaking words of a wise man, sweet as the moonlight shining
beneath our empty heads. I can see what I was and what I will become in one
glance truth told me in my journey through life. How can I trusted when trust
never giving me chance to trust it? I told myself not to give up this fight,
but I’m just dead tired doing things that giving me nothing but wounds and unseen
scars. I’m merely human and flesh is weak. I wanted to believe that I would win
the war in my head that I did not understand.
I used to pray to what I believed
in, a faith that never loses its spirit until the sun has set down on me.
Leaving me as a broken man with broken promises and an empty glass in my hand. I
miss the dark lonely person I left in the corner; he’s waiting for a hand to
call his name back: “Rainer…Rainer…” Sounding of the sweet caressing voice are
fainted behind the closing gates of treason. How much more can I sat down here
and waiting, where nobody gives what I gives or love the way I love them. The
world is quiet, he never answered back to the whispering I spoken soft into his
ears.
People are like strangers now;
they have the same eyes but see different sights. I used t smell the morning
flower breeze when I was a young kid. The rain just stop outside my room window
pane and I can still scent of the water left on the air around me. It was
paradise of my own and everything was simple those days; only I being
truthfully-unknown-blessed. Far away long ago, things my heart used know now
are all being replaced by numb emotion that are shattered all over the place.
No reason to build again, no laughter to share again, no sadness to wipe no
more. I’m just tired and wanted to rest.
I wanted to believe
Bodies swinging from trees
Struggling to stand
With your head in your hands
Johnette Napolitano - Suicide Note
suicide note? thtz creepy
its nice
your so emo….
don´t worry to much dude…
GOD has a plan for you…
PATIENCE is still a virtue!!
BTW! nice post
your so emo….
don´t worry to much dude…
GOD has a plan for you…
PATIENCE is still a virtue!!
BTW! nice post
juzt be strong..
wow…..fantastic,,,
hang on!just keep in praying and remember life must go own.you’re not the only one who experience that!maybe its time for you to move on!!!!!
life must go own dude… move on and be happy olweiz…
sometimes we just have to accept that what used to be and what you actually believed in wasn’t really true…we lose some, we win some…know when to stop trying to hurt yourself…sometimes our best wasn’t really good enough for a person we hold much too dearly to fight for..
move on…life is so beautiful not to live it.
find someone you deserve…enjoy the best life has to offer!
nice post…let’s move on…that’s life…
wow its so interesting your blog it cath my attention so that i send u a simple commit i really like a honest people they so strong to tell there feelings like what u say some people are lie pretending to be happy they are like wearing of a mask. we can’t really please every body.people have different attitude and values in thier life.
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Don’t give up. God Loves you so much.
sometimes we just have to accept that what used to be and what you actually believed in wasn’t really true…we lose some, we win some…know when to stop trying to hurt yourself…sometimes our best wasn’t really good enough for a person we hold much too dearly to fight for..
move on…life is so beautiful not to live it.
find someone you deserve…enjoy the best life has to offer!
Maybe the right person has not come yet. Or maybe this one is just another trial of you in a relationship. Why not give another one try? or if you think it’s enough, spread your wings..still not the end of the world. You are lovable,intelligent,romantic yet has strong personality and very open-minded as I believed. I’ve been reading your blog almost a year now and I think I knew atleast what kind of person you are.
” I miss the dark lonely person I left in the corner”. Why not rephrase it? instead of dark lonely person..try to be a person who could celebrate life even he’s alone. So when you might be in a relationship again and lose it once again, it would be easy to go back to a life with no more drama….
It’s beautiful the way you expressed everything. i can relate. There’s no word of comfort that comes to mind, i’m doubtful that u will be comforted anyway since to me it might sound lame.
Please have some hope. You write this, people read it and they care enough to offer you encouragements even if some didnt even know u.
Even from your dark writings some people feel comforted because they know there are others out there like them. Like me. A bit ironic isn’t it?
Since your writing gives comfort to some others, dont be reluctant to share the small fire of hope still burning in them.
You deserves better. Thanks for making up my day with beautiful words.
ellow to all k blog….
Truth was the dagger that had killed my heart and had kept me bleeding… but it was the same dagger that had woken me up from the world’s sweet yet cruel lies…
Saying it is not of what it is; saying it is of what it is not, is undoubtedly saying a thing it really isn’t: a lie. We know it is but we refuse to look.
Saying it is of what it is; saying it is not of what it is not is the reality we keep hiding…
But it the end, no matter how strong your denial is, truth will always push you towards that hollow room… Dark… empty…
It won’t let you get out unless you know where the key of the door is… A hint: it’s on your hand…
> i like your blog..^^
everyone has a choice in lyf..
u dont has to settle in 1 particular thing that u regret,,we have so many choices,, and i know ders a plan for u,,mwaahh!cheer up!gods loves u…tc
AM HAPPY TO JOIN
don’t give up
let this day be a new adventure, a chance to prove that yesterday made YOU better, stronger and wiser.. may YOUR choices today make a better tomorrow….
Hmm…
Your blog really catch my attention…
God has a plan…
Smile…
You’re not giving up blogging, are you? ;).You’re soooo good. Your blog inspiring me. To be better.
ur thingking tomorow, bt,its jzt an think, maybe or not! its better!
medyo parang ganyan din ang pakiramdam ko ngayon…
…i am troubled with this war in my head that i can’t also understand…lagpas isang taon na pala kong inactive sa church. hehehe. what a life.
anyway,
very articulate ang blog mo.
naka relate ako.
=)
life is beautiful. enjoy it,
the same way i feel today after a big row with my girlfriend, i think everyone’s stranger. Even my girlfriend have the same eyes but see different thing..
i love your work.. there are really times in a human life that one must experience being left in the corner and just like being hanged… just bare this in mind somewhere, someone is waiting for you… don’t lose hope, look on the other side of it having those pain in your heart somehow will make you wise and even strong… remember keep loving and love ‘tol it hurts no more…
klagfkla
I WANT TO EXPRESS MY THOUGHTS..FEELINGS ON YOUR ITEM THROUGH A SHORT QUOTATION……..
“PEOPLE ALWAYS THINK THAT THE MOST PAINFUL THING IN LIFE IS LOSING THE ONE YOU VALUE. THE TRUTH IS, THE MOST PAINFUL IS LOSING YOURSELF IN THE PROCESS OF VALUING SOMEONE TOO MUCH, AND FORGETTING THAY YOU ARE SPECIAL TOO”.
ALWAYS THINK OF THE POSITIVE SIDES OF EVERY TRIALS COZ THAT WHERE WE CAN START A NEW LIFE AGAIN WITH NEVER ENDING HOPE WITHIN OURSELVES THAT ONE DAY TRUE LOVE WILL COME, KNOCK AND STAY FOREVER!!!!!!!!
I simply like it! Why? coz somehow, I see myself under the context of those written words…my emotions…my whole being right at this very moment.
don’t dwell
keep moving forward!!!
yah… have faith in God…. Move on!!!
Yah!!! Have faith in God… Move on …
lam mo.., wag k mxado padla
sa feelings muh..,
learn 2 fight.. ?! ok:-D
lam mo.., wag k mxado padla
sa feelings muh..,
learn 2 fight.. ?! ok:-D
but did we ever wonder why we still breathing? why we go on living despite the bursting emotions inside? maybe because we believe that within us we can still make a difference… we can better things… never forget GOD (we had in light) more when we are in the dark…
it is a touching story….and remember that JESUS LOVES US…thanks for the message i’ll just opened days ago…since then u sent…i like short or brief stories…
juz kip in touch lng kua,..
wel,..nice blog ah,..ang ganda,..hehe,..vry intresting,
having same filings w/u,..
i understand on wat u really
felt,..juz move on kua,..
find ways to find wat
is ur luking for,..juz follow
ur heart but b4 ur heart,..
mnid 1st,..coz mind is d one
who decide 1st b4 anything
else,..its 4 ur own gud,,..
the only truth i know at this very moment that sometimes people are too abusive on their own self,, thinking that whatevr happens they wont react in evry bit out of it,, cause the possibilities are very clear, why fear of the truth when you know exactly is going to happen?? put yourself a thousand sails before making a decision. truth actually lies in your hands.:)