I have a thought that’s been
circling my head like sharks in the warm Australian currents.
I can’t h
ave everything that I
wanted. I mean, some things are just beyond my reach and I must accept it. I’m
not the type of person who gives up when I can’t have it and leave it to fate.
Deep down inside, my compulsiveness is disappointed by my losing of fulfillment
of what I want. So, to cover my disappointment, I MUST BE that thing that I
can’t have. I must become that thing that is beyond reach for someone’s. Is
that rational?
I understand and fully aware that
my behavior of obsessive-compulsive is getting me worried in the last couple of
years. It’s getting me freaky and I’m just afraid if I’m going to be the next
Hitler. Disasters always start from one puny wishes and one big temptation to fulfill
it. What if I’m like Napoleon with a desire so immense that he want to make one
great big United States of Europe.
I talked with Yuni, Danny & Yunus. This is their answer:
Yuni: “For me,it’s not.Because it means,you’ll be forcing yourself
beyond your powers. You don’t always get what you want in life,dear.But,you can
always make the best out of what you already got.Who knows,it might even be
better compared to the one you want but can’t have..”
Danny: “nah, klo gag berhasil menjadi (EN: so, if we can’t succeed becoming) the thing that u cant
have… what would u do??? [...the secret recipe of d Legendary NoodleSoup is n
o t h i n g... Kungfu Panda]
Yunus: “Every human is trying at their best, if they can’t succeed
and have what they wanted, try for option B.” (Well, we talked on the phone for hours and this is the bottom line of
what he was saying).
But for me, I still try to
understand why. Why am I so perfectionist obsessive-compulsive freak? Why
people just accept fate? Why humans are given all the powers in the universe
but still limited to things? Humans are blessed with the power of light, heat,
magnetism, gravity, and all the energies of the universe, but why are they
limiting themselves?
I’m not speaking about law and
social morals, but more into the willingness deep inside that small nerves and
neurons inside each and every biological body of ours of wanting something. Like
me, I want something, I must get it in every way, no option B. The eager, the
spirit is so great within me. What makes the difference is time of fulfillment.
I’m very patience and diligent in doing the thing to get to the thing that I wanted.
It’s not a question of do I need
that thing that want or what would I do when I get that thing, it’s more into
process when I’m dealing with myself. Process is far more important that the result.
Process brings you into the level of achievement of development of a mutual
individual. When I want it, nothing can replace it or come in between, probably
X-factor come along the journey but that just add more into until I get what I want.
And that is that.
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hm… danny seemed having “too much” of Kungfu Panda [his opinion kinda out of the line] ^o^
how much is too much b ???
hahaha john maxwell said that success is the journey of life and not the wealth nor the achievements! so we just enjoy when it comes our way!…peaceout!
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*** Nice blog..i’m sometimes perfectionist too.. but i’m more open now..and flexible.. we can’t help but to accept the fact that some thing has to be held as it is..i mean let’s just convey acceptance to ourselves as well as to other people..and instill to our minds that nothing is perfect… closer to perfect would be the description i could whack..
for me- I may say I am Obssessive but its normal. For some reasons- I may be afraid people might lose me as their friend or as the one being loved. But That’s what happen.
But, for me, its OK. People exist with this characteristics just learn to be positive on your traits. And the rest will go well
i feel u…
Fight for your own happines..
Get what U want to get..
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way to go….my ever fave author…! you always write what my thoughts contain. you write perfectly well with an overly obsessive compulsively behavior. i really love it. somewhere…somehow there’s somebody out there who’s identical to me..so you’re gay…i’m gay, too. in more ways than one. and that perfectionist…obsessive compulsive behavior, i thought i’m unique..it’s nice to know we have somthings in common…
Dear Better.. Human don’t make limitations for themselves. It’s something has already been determined since the beginning of the universe. Only God who has no limits. It’s a positive way of thinking that you will try any way to reach you goal and time is only a variable until you finally succeed. But, what if it takes forever, handsome..?
then forever i shall wait.
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hy humans are given all the powers in the universe but still limited to things? Humans are blessed with the power of light, heat, magnetism, gravity, and all the energies of the universe, but why are they limiting themselves? I agree on that.
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it’s hard conquering our own emotions. if you’re OC, i’m eccentric. but i’m trying hard to act as if i’m ordinary. it worked, and it didn’t. i think these kinds of impulses could never be changed, nor be accepted.
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yeah..me too, i thought he’s gay or gayer..
are you a gay
aja!
just be happy for what you have..
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No, you cannot leave it to fate the things you wanted to have but cant have it.My friend, it is either not for you or there is something good for you. Try to imagine things you wanted for instance but in the process with so much effort nothing seems to give a clue that you may have it? I ask you whats your response? maybe you want to kick off the door or shut the window for no availment of the desire to own something. My dear friend, that is not the way God wanted you to react. Sometimes it maybe difficult for our flesh to accept or to lay down the cards to Him and telling Him, God if it is not your will then I dont want it. I dont want to settle for the second best.Do you want to settle for the second best? I dont think so. Sometimes what we think what we desire is the best for us. But without our knowledge, God has something better in store for us.No, not all humans were given all the powers in the universe. Instead we were given much limitations. Why? because God doesnt want us to be independent. He wanted us in every aspect of our life we depended upon Him. becuse only God can provide all that we need.We have to acknowledge HIm as a rightful source.That is why many of us always ending up to emptiness because we dont acknowledge Him.We usually end up to dead end. My friend your crave of perfection i not bad, only discouraging because from the beginning we are not perfect. I will be convinced rather if you will say you are leading to that line.Not stepping on that line.option B if Option a will not work? hahhaha. I dont think so, what if both options will not work? Try Option C? what if not? Option D then, and so on, until you are burnt up. You may say, atleats you have tried everything your capacity ca. Capacity cn? Why not directly go to the On ewho can give oyu one and only the best option in the world? Godbless to all.
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