» Moon of My Red Meadows Bra1n-w@shed

I haven’t written anything for quite a long time. Not because there’s nothing happen in my life. Many people come in and go in my door step. Stories I have been through. The sad book, the joy adventure and lonely romantic journey. My body surrenders to the situation where I accepted that I can’t control everything. My mind tries to fight but in the end it just flows with the rhythm life has prepared for me.

People grief on the contrary, singing meadow of the night in the feeling of greatness. I told myself to never let go of that secure feeling I have since long ago. Not even when somebody trying to dig cracks in my wall of defense. He may get through me but never have me whole. I am belonging to my shadow and my shadow only. Everybody lies they said, everybody have their own secrets they said and I have mine too.

The world can break me like crystal on a hard concrete road in the middle of nowhere; I will never be found. God pick up my pieces as He picked up my shattered faith. It’s raining crucifix and angels now. They fall right between my eyes and show me the only truth the world ever known. They are inside me filling my emptiness with realism and ropes from the thread you made for me.

My days are fine like a sailor on a sunny day out far on the horizon of watery world. Seagulls lead me to my sanctuary. Wisdom words are my prayers, strength is my belief. Like the old wise king in his golden days. I’m calm like the water itself carries so many peacefulness inside it and all the drifting dreams it has. Creatures swimming inside my skin building castles of commiseration, deep underground.

Shame to myself who’s been letting my guard down and let myself in the maze of my own super-dramatic life line. I let myself drifted to the sound of my own amusement which leads to nothingness. In the result of my own disappointment I cried for help. Dripping melody of my sanctuary let’s dance to this tune of oddness that each of us has creates to satisfy our solitary lives.

But then I realize that this just had to stop. My mind is one and I’m the captain of this boat. I can’t keep jumping ship just to feed my ego and lust. I’m about to finish on this dramatizing every events and start to pull my head out from the dirt. Looking to the great big horizon where I see copies of myself lining up in an army of me. Ready to defend and replace me whenever I go start destroying myself on the folktales about ‘love’.

30 Responses to “Moon of My Red Meadows”

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1 joffreyloquez April 7, 2009 at 11:24 pm

…………………….you’re.in hte army now……….?!……….
2 xand April 7, 2009 at 11:53 pm

mmm, excuse me, would you mind doing me a favor, could you write something lighter than this so i can enjoy your writting, cos i believe that you are more interesting than your writting, ok
3 lumen April 8, 2009 at 6:10 am

aqu menjalani hidupqu tapi aqu butuh yemen2qu……….??????????????
4 mariellekristine April 9, 2009 at 12:58 am

impressive! ^^
5 jepty marie gamana April 9, 2009 at 4:58 am

dis s nice storyisnt it? i really ♥ it tanx and

have anice day
6 venuz April 13, 2009 at 8:06 am

ga tau dech…..
7 jaylo8891 April 13, 2009 at 10:18 pm

bitterness does you good. i just hope you’ll also write something from your bliss experiences. anyhow, keep the faith. everything will be alright, alright?

there’s a better day ahead of you. take care.
8 satan boy April 14, 2009 at 3:11 am

nice…come on,join me 2 be a powerful satan!
9 charen roca April 14, 2009 at 3:49 am

the xperience of loving him makes my heart cry always
10 izyerk07 April 15, 2009 at 8:04 am

just like in the sea…there are mystery .. keep up.,
11 rhaylene18 April 17, 2009 at 9:56 am

i like your post tnx for inspiring me…
12 andi April 17, 2009 at 7:35 pm

andi
13 andi April 17, 2009 at 7:36 pm

takodi
14 carmie April 18, 2009 at 9:46 pm

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15 xa22 April 19, 2009 at 6:06 am

nice blog
im enjoying reading your articles
can i ask u afavor?
can you pls tell me how were you able to place a picture in the top of your blog
i mean the heading

tnx
16 ernalyn April 20, 2009 at 6:46 am

i dream anything that i want to be…
17 ernalyn April 20, 2009 at 6:47 am

hi to all!!!!!!!!!!!!
18 irene1979 April 21, 2009 at 4:35 am

A scientist knows everything about his invention. He knows every detail of his creation…
God is our Creator. He knows what’s everything inside of us. If you want to know yourself, go to God. As you know him well and as you realize his nature, you’ll know who you are. Life may seem very complicated if we will not let God to lead the way. We are naked in front of him. You cant hide from God. Surrender and let him heal you. It may hurt but after the pain, you’ll enjoy every single moment of your peaceful life.
19 CITRA April 21, 2009 at 5:50 am

That’s nice blog.(I am from Indonesian)
20 alex-0722 April 22, 2009 at 4:45 pm

Hi. I like what you wrote. interesting.. keep posting.
21 myeverything April 22, 2009 at 10:45 pm

interesting word. blog yg sangat menarikk isinya…
see my blog kapn2 yaa..

uci-indonesia
22 dars April 24, 2009 at 1:30 pm

dars
23 aerielou April 25, 2009 at 2:38 am

your a true inspiration of the humanity…
perhaps,to an unripe creature like me…
GOD BLESS YOU…
:]
24 kudil April 26, 2009 at 10:55 am

music
25 kudil April 26, 2009 at 10:57 am

music all
26 aennhepy May 14, 2009 at 2:41 am

hye there!!!!
27 denny casanova May 14, 2009 at 9:52 pm

ooooiiiiii…….
28 marife May 15, 2009 at 4:44 am

i like your story! i can relate to it.
29 poinkz May 15, 2009 at 10:09 am

hei. great composition. i so love it..
30 amiexzjegegz May 17, 2009 at 5:26 am

hai,,,,,

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